izzy66
Bluelighter
glass splintered
night shattered
blurry awareness
someone breathing
but
it's not me.
smell of acrid sweat
but
it's not me.
eyes opened wide
scream on the rise
huge hands
upon
my face
"why now,
why please,
why motherfucker,
why me?"
fabric shredding
hands
all over me
"no, not now
no, this can
not be."
and the words roll
violence
hatred
all over me
as
the blood flows
from my mouth
as
the blood flows
from my nose,
flows
all over me.
pain replaces
everything
blood flying
words of hate
words of violence
he spit at me
pain pleases him
blood brings
wide grins
i left the room
my body stayed
behind...
violence rolled
all over me.
he found a bright
sliver of glass
said it was
a gift,
a gift for me.
he bent down
and
cut my wrists,
cut me free.
"a gift for you
a gift from me
i've watched
long nights
of your misery
and now,
now you can be
free."
he cut deep, deeper
no pain left
inside of me.
"this is my gift
the gift you craved
a gift from me,
a gift so you can
finally
be free."
words rolled
blood flowed
could i really
be free?
so far away,
slipping
into the night
so far away from
me...
-august 9th, 2006
-3:20 a.m.
-from a deep sleep
night shattered
blurry awareness
someone breathing
but
it's not me.
smell of acrid sweat
but
it's not me.
eyes opened wide
scream on the rise
huge hands
upon
my face
"why now,
why please,
why motherfucker,
why me?"
fabric shredding
hands
all over me
"no, not now
no, this can
not be."
and the words roll
violence
hatred
all over me
as
the blood flows
from my mouth
as
the blood flows
from my nose,
flows
all over me.
pain replaces
everything
blood flying
words of hate
words of violence
he spit at me
pain pleases him
blood brings
wide grins
i left the room
my body stayed
behind...
violence rolled
all over me.
he found a bright
sliver of glass
said it was
a gift,
a gift for me.
he bent down
and
cut my wrists,
cut me free.
"a gift for you
a gift from me
i've watched
long nights
of your misery
and now,
now you can be
free."
he cut deep, deeper
no pain left
inside of me.
"this is my gift
the gift you craved
a gift from me,
a gift so you can
finally
be free."
words rolled
blood flowed
could i really
be free?
so far away,
slipping
into the night
so far away from
me...
-august 9th, 2006
-3:20 a.m.
-from a deep sleep

