Interested in all things ketamine

[donwie]

Hi there. I had never seen this site but I am glad to be part of such a well informed and responsible group. My issue is major depression and anxiety, like for 42 years, first ten self medicating with pot. Almost every day for the last 25 years I have been depressed, melancholic, anxious, or both; when not depressed I have disassociative disorder, depersonalization, anhaedonia -- whatever you want to call it: no pleasure or desire, at best an interest in things. I feel as if I observing life from afar -- often through a fog like at the seashore, both cognitively and in terms of my emotional reaction. How do you describe "nothing"? I am in life, but not of it.

I have been able to work off and on, and for that I am grateful. After 42 years I will try anything. For years now, fluoxetine, bupropion, adderall. I have been on 30 drugs and know a lot as a lay person about SSRI's, NSRI's, benzos, stimulants and now oxy from reading Medline (Pubmed) since the 1990's (like when I have nothing else to do, which is often). I am the go to person among friends and acquaintances -- but you will always get a qualified layperson answer to a question.

Oh, I have been doing tai chi -- yoga not being my thing -- for a few decades and that has helped. My Chinese martial arts master says if I continue to practice I can live to be 120 -- yikes!!! He also said I would be able to fly like the characters in "Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon."

Now researching oxy and ketamine, and know pluses and minuses of both, but always pleased to hear anyone's opinion or experience, or both. Thanks, D

 

[Bearlove]

Hi there and welcome to the site,

Ketamine has been used by people to manage depression I think they were using very small amounts and via IM injection. I'll see if I can remember where the guy posted (was a few years ago and Ill get you a link.

In the mean time there is quite a bit on depression and medicating around the site so I'm sure you will find some information.

Good luck
Bear

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User Jamshyd was quite experienced with ketamine (to say the least) so it may be worth you checking out some of his posts on the subject

 

[donwie]

Thanks. I have read the postss by Jamshyd, read from KetamineAdvocacyNetwork, and on my own, knowing some statistics, have read the clinical research available in Full Text on Pubmed.org (Medline). The area of research is exploding. My M.D., who stays very current, says there will be a NMDA drug, maybe ketamine, with at home delivery options, in a year. He usually does not give false hope.

So, along the way, if it can do me some good, maybe my experience will be helpful to others. Meanwhile my MD, pretty progressive, asked me if I like watching the Aspens change to fall colors in Colorado, and I am in the 420 Wisconsin wasteland. Don

 

[Eveleivibe]

Hiya downie - and welcome to Bluelight. There's a lot of support n information here re various substances n mental health. There's a mental health sub-forum, within the recovery forums.

I am sorry to hear of your issues but glad you've come here. I have heard that tai chi n yoga can be helpful n would be interested in hearing more?

I noticed that you call the antidepressant, fluoxetine instead of prozac. You do not answer this but are you from the UK? Reason I'm asking is that Bluelight has a sub-forum called EADD (European n African Drug Discussion) n you're welcome to join us. We're a friendly group n there are also menbers there battling depress n / various other mental ill-health. Take care

Evey