INTENSE reality breakdown.

[crimsondestroyer]

I really just feel the need to share this right now, while on LSD I have this distinct sense that I feel has been awakened for the first time EVER for me. First, while watching a sunrise over a mountain, I saw a vast landscape being slowly illuminated by the sun. Something I had never seen before, so my mind was creating it for the first time. I felt like I could literally feel these little synapses start firing in my physical brain and got this REALLY weird, INTENSELY intimate feeling. Like I could feel happiness pressing against my bones if that makes sense. after watching this sunset I went inside and looked in the mirror for a while. After focusing for a while got this EXTREMELY bizarre feeling of where my mind is located in reference to my body. I THEN proceed to see everything with two separate eyes creating two separate images. I started moving my head really fast and I could feel this "axis" that I was on. I moved my head really fast and then my necked cracked and it felt like My brain could feel itself. honestly Im getting kind of nautious typing this because its starting to take over me again because Im thinking about it. WOW

 

[biffhenderson]

“You’ve taken your first step into a larger world.” – Obi-Wan Kenobi,

 

[byte]

What was the dosage? My trips thus far have been delightful but nothing of the magnitude of what you described. However I've only been playing around with ~150ug doses.

 

[folding_space]

There's nothing like good old fashioned LSD 25 for getting you way out there. The first time I experienced something like what you describe was one of the best times of my life. For me it was the sight of clouds crossing the sky and the sound of the birds singing - I lost all sense of distiction between between my internal reality and the external world for what seemed like eternity. Beautiful.

There is no boundary between your internal reality and the external world.

 

[sockpuppet]

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[jawn doe]

Its funny that you mention the feeling of a difference between the locations of you and your mind. I have often described the psychedelic experience to be a state of reality above and somewhere to the side of what "normal" is. I have an intensely clear image of myself in the psychedelic mindset that is represented by me staring out a window while i actually exist in a starlit blue attic up a very narrow and steep stairway, somewhere above and diagonally behind me. This attic always exists but only through certain means does it get used.
That probably sounded ridiculous, but I felt I had to put it out there.

 

[Shifty38]

Another series of posts that make me smile ...

Edit: In a very good way :D

 

[psycosynthesis]

I remember a similar experience, watching the sun set over the ocean while on a low dose. Listening to The Chemical Brothers-The Test. Some of the lyrics to that song are "I'm seeing waves breaking form to my horizon
Yeah I'm shining
I'm seeing waves breaking form to my horizon
Lord, I'm shining"

Very fitting, God I love synchronicity.

Enjoy the rest of your trip.

 

[crimsondestroyer]

So after being pretty much down from the trip I feel that I can elaborate a bit more on what happened. First it should be noted that I was having a brilliantly fun first trip. I have tripped on shrooms many times but it in no way prepared me for the pure psychadelic splendor of LSD. I was more invigorated and intensely interested in things that I had ever been in my life since as far back as I can remember. I literally had the feeling of my mouth being electrically charged. when I would press my tongue against my pallette I could feel some kind of static charge. It was insanely bizarre but not unpleasurable. At the 6 hour mark, the effects were waning to the point where I felt almost baseline, but still somewhat energetic and euphoric. I dosed at midnight, so I'm talking about 6 AM right now. BTW I live in AZ which has vast landscapes and huge mountains all around. I decided to take one hit of some sativa marijuana, a strain that I knew was very strong and heady. Mind you I dont smoke often (less than once a week usually) so I am VERY psychologically effected by THC. After taking one good hit, I was brought to a height of the trip that probably doubled anything that I had experienced in the last 5 hours. I was watching the sun rise over these mountains and was brought to this incredible sense of NOW and HERE. I could literally see the landscape being slowly illuminated by the sun. I cant quite think of how to best put this but seeing this made me acutely aware of the earth's movement. I could literally feel the earth rotating in space. My heart started pounding and I got nausea compared to the same kind of nausea you get when spinning around in circles for a while. It was without a doubt the most increibly profound and beautiful and humbling experience I've ever had. I obviously can't remember exactly what it felt like, but I remember the specific thought of "This is the most incredible thing I've ever experienced as a human in my memory".

 

[Halif]

My LSD trips have mostly taken place in a south London flat where all you can see out the window is the traffic going down the A-road that links Catford to Bromley, under overcast, drizzling skies.

Ah damn.. I feel for you.

Although I trip both indoors and outdoors and generally can have good experiences with both settings, I find that the chance of having a really positive experience is hugely boosted by being in a natural environment.

Are you affected by the weather usually?

I guess most people are to some extent, but then some (like myself) can find their moods fairly severely impacted by it. I experience SAD (seasonal affective disorder) type worsening of mood during the middle of winter - to the extent that my use of psychedelics is limited to the warm and bright months.

Sorry for getting off topic.

 

[TangerinO]

I still remember my first real day trip. Watching imaginary people (I assume) dancing in the clouds, reaching down for me, trying to pull me up to join the fun, while White Rabbit just sent my body to places of euphoria previously unknown.

LSD is a hell of a fucking drug.

 

[It's a baby!]

Oh that sounds lovely, the electric feeling in your mouth is the sine qua non of real, good acid in my experience.

Taking a good dose of psychedelics is like going through some kind of cosmic car-wash for your entire being. Sounds like you had a good scrub man.

 

[jawn doe]

Not ridiculous at all - a very interesting and strangely poignant image. I can't quite get my head around it though - the attic is the place you go while tripping? What does the window represent, and what do you see outside it? Is the window in the attic? Did this image first come to you while you were tripping? Sorry for all the questions but it's because I do find it an interesting metaphor.

The window is where i physically reside, the attic where my mind goes. The window is on a second floor (out of two living floors,) and the attic is somewhere above and behind, probably a few meters to the left if anything. I think that the window represents my senses, and the attic is where the disconnect between external stimuli and perception thereof happens.
I'm honestly not sure whats outside the window, that part never made it into my mental image, likely because the experience varies so wildly. It first came to me while i was thinking about tripping. Often, when I first acquire a sizeable amount of any psychedelic, it becomes a bit of a fixation, probably because itll be a while until I get a chance to eat any of it (like the two strips I got in January that are still two whole strips.)
Thanks for encouraging me to delve a little deeper into what this image means to me, I had yet to put more thought into it beyond just what the image looks like in my head.

 

[crimsondestroyer]

It's interesting that you have a mental image of where your mind goes when tripping. Whenever I trip I ALWAYS without fail think about how incredibly different and profoundly changed I feel from when I decided to ingest. Almost like I never quite grasp the entire experience of tripping before I do it. I think, "ok cool I'm gonna eat some shrooms tonight and have myself a time". But once bemushroomed I am dumbfounded at how much more altered I am than what I concieved I would be, even though I've eaten shrooms plenty of times. I guess the same could be said for MDMA but thats a much more predictable experience.

 

[jawn doe]

So true. It's like the altered state you get to on psychedelics is literally unimaginable from a sober point of view. You know you've been to that place before, but you can't know what it's actually like until you get there again. You can remember the things that you did and thought and felt that were a secondary product of the psychedelic high, but not the high itself. The only way that it can be pictured is metaphorically, as in jawn doe's image.

So very true. I almost invariably ask myself "Why do I keep putting myself through this? You'd think by now I would have remembered what is going to happen to my mind," the answer becomes clear during the comedown and then the question disappears in the morning.
Metaphors are truly the best way to describe the experience, but I find that it only works with someone who has experienced it before. I have always felt, though, that the more words you put together about it, the more injustice you do to the experience. Once you move beyond a monosyllabic expression of disbelief, you move further and further away from the truth, yet it is something that beckons you to try and take the "in" out of "ineffable."