my worst enemy
Bluelighter
hey.
I've stayed sober for 2 month now, having quit taking benzo, booze mainly, but also opiates and cannabis off and on for many many years. And I've just recently learned about PAWS. And for some reason its comforting to hear that the weird shit that you're going through might be related to the PAWS, and that they most likely will go away.
For example i experience memory loss, like mainly short term memory, which makes me feel like a pothead & idiot. Way crappy self esteem, anxiety, fucked up dreams, obsessive thinking (i imagine what people think, but don't say, like mean shit, that i can hear them thinking. I know its a symptom of anxiety and shit, yet frustrating as hell 8(). Im also very easily stressed, like dealing with papers and welfare and trying to find a treatment center and looking for apartments and a school etc.. sometimes i get on the edge of panic attack and for that i use Hydroxicin. Besides that im 100% clean.
Is this stuff related to PAWS and for how long can I be stuck with it? Should i be doing something during this period of sobriety in order for my life to become easier further on?
I feel strong and positive about staying clean and the fact that there are obstacles that are beatable just makes me more pepped. Im simply grateful that i still have my sanity and heath above the surface, cause i know it could be way worse by this time.
thanx
I've stayed sober for 2 month now, having quit taking benzo, booze mainly, but also opiates and cannabis off and on for many many years. And I've just recently learned about PAWS. And for some reason its comforting to hear that the weird shit that you're going through might be related to the PAWS, and that they most likely will go away.
For example i experience memory loss, like mainly short term memory, which makes me feel like a pothead & idiot. Way crappy self esteem, anxiety, fucked up dreams, obsessive thinking (i imagine what people think, but don't say, like mean shit, that i can hear them thinking. I know its a symptom of anxiety and shit, yet frustrating as hell 8(). Im also very easily stressed, like dealing with papers and welfare and trying to find a treatment center and looking for apartments and a school etc.. sometimes i get on the edge of panic attack and for that i use Hydroxicin. Besides that im 100% clean.
Is this stuff related to PAWS and for how long can I be stuck with it? Should i be doing something during this period of sobriety in order for my life to become easier further on?
I feel strong and positive about staying clean and the fact that there are obstacles that are beatable just makes me more pepped. Im simply grateful that i still have my sanity and heath above the surface, cause i know it could be way worse by this time.
thanx
