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integrating LSD 10 years later?!

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anonymousmama

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:?:? well the terrors are over for the day, hopefully for good... the thought loop of worry projection can be so painful! integrating 10 years later with very little support has been weird, but 10 years ago i actually tried to kill myself and today I only thought about it. and now i can write without pranoid tremors. yay! if anyone else has experience of integrating powerful LSD experience 10 years later (recovering Self / soul retrieval) I'd be very interested to hear about that. ..
 
I've never been able articulate the lsd experience in a way that's easy to integrate, it's hard to understand all those things in a way that can't really be explained, only experienced. It's very lonely, I found a way to articulate it in a way that anybody can understand and is easily intergratable. I wrote this last night:

Everything is as it should be. It couldn't have been any other way.

Life, like the universe is just an ongoing chemical reaction, Life is part of the same chemical reaction as the rest of the universe, the big bang. Everything is one, everything is just chemistry.

We are insignificant, yet we are a part of something amazing, and every part is equal, everything is made of the same thing. Our bodies are made up of carbon molecules that were fused from atoms in stars biliions of years ago. We're are all one chemical reaction.

Everything has already been set in motion, enjoy the ride, you are lucky enough to be one of the few parts of the universe that can experience itself. Try to spend your life making yourself better and help as many people as you can. This is your chance to make yourself better, because you are the universe and when you die you will rejoin it. Infinite time means infinite possibilities, you'll come back again as someone else, just as the water on earth has been reused for the entire history of the planet so are all the atoms in the universe. Do you want to make things better or worse? There's no limits, it's heaven or hell and we have the power to choose.

LSD is the mirror of life, it's shows you youself without your ego, it shows you that you are everything.

It shows you the baby universe inside your head, it awakens your consciousness and we need to use that power to shape both universes.

This was understood throughout most of human history, predators among us (which we now label psychopaths) took control. In ancient cultures if someone wanted more than the needed their was something wrong with them. Now our world has been taken over by these predators and they manipulated us with greed. We fell for their temptation and our society becomes more greedy everyday. We have been warned about this by exceptionally intelligent people for thousands of years.

Everyone has forgotten, everyone has been brainwashed and consumed by greed. We are very close to creating an apocalypse. All religions have taught us this and warned us about it. Religions are just story's that were written by wise men and women, people who were truly awake, people who wanted things to get better.

If we don't wake up soon we are all doomed.
 
RiseAgain said:
Everything has already been set in motion, enjoy the ride, you are lucky enough to be one of the few parts of the universe that can experience itself. Try to spend your life making yourself better and help as many people as you can. This is your chance to make yourself better, because you are the universe and when you die you will rejoin it. Infinite time means infinite possibilities, you'll come back again as someone else, just as the water on earth has been reused for the entire history of the planet so are all the atoms in the universe. Do you want to make things better or worse? There's no limits, it's heaven or hell and we have the power to choose.

beautiful! thank you - -- i've been getting these messages too :) to make myself better because ripple effect! and help others because same.
<3 <3 <3
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somebody please read and respond

re: this thread earlier - it was a bit dicey a couple of weeks ago and i made up some paranoia around the computer and energy fields - plus wasn't sure i wanted to be here - started some of the ptsd meds again so i could feel somewhat competent (wellbutrin, adderall, clonazepam and medical cannabis).... and i'm still here, which is good because ripple effect of trauma. right?
 
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I'm glad you are still here!<3 Are you seeing a therapist? Is there any way that you could? Sometimes our own perceptions are so thick that it takes an outside observer to call them into question and help us to shift things around in our own minds. Most anxiety is reliving the past ro imagining the future as a narrative that we write but mistake as "reality". Having a therapist that acts as an outside observer can be very helpful.
 
What happened to you with the LSD? Was it limited to paranoia, ptsd, and anxiety? It would be interesting to see a retrospective report on the psychological effects you experienced.
anonymousmama said:
:?:? well the terrors are over for the day, hopefully for good... the thought loop of worry projection can be so painful! integrating 10 years later with very little support has been weird, but 10 years ago i actually tried to kill myself and today I only thought about it. and now i can write without pranoid tremors. yay! if anyone else has experience of integrating powerful LSD experience 10 years later (recovering Self / soul retrieval) I'd be very interested to hear about that. ..
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