ChemicalSmiles
Ex-Bluelighter
Ok so I have been going through the worst period of insomnia in my life. Ive had times like this before but never for this long.
Some background info;
Kicked heroin w/ methadone 4 years ago. Went clean off everything except marijuana and lots of alcohol. A year later picked up the opiates again and started using oxy 4 times a week for 3 years. Then I picked up a benzo habit as well.... cut back to maybe 2 days a week of opiates and 4 days a week of xanax (usually 3-5 mgs). I stopped taking an anti depressant about 3 months ago because I felt it had a few side effects and wasnt work well, or at all. I took ecstasy 6 weeks later (made sure the SSRI was completely out of my system. I took a fairly high dose. A month ago my oxy habit had picked up some (to 4 days a week like my xanax use so I cut them both out, the opies cold turkey, and I weaned down the benzos (in a quick fashion but not at a dangerous speed)... Usually marijuana will help me sleep at night but that has stopped working. After some good time away from the xanax ive started eating those not even to get fucked up, in desperation of sleep. Last night I took 75 mgs of temazepam and 5 mgs of xanax I was slightly buzzed and then smoked 2 bowls of high grade pot. This made me drowsy but all I could do was toss and turn. I couldn't believe it!!! Im starting to think depression has snuck up on me (I feel sad 5 out of 7 days a week these days) and im sure the ecstasy in Miami didnt help my situation..... Ive had about 15 hours of sleep in 5 days.... only 4 in the last 48 hours or so..... I just took a handful of xanax and am about to commence smoking a gram of marijuana in attempts to sleep even 4 hours... just 4 would be so nice....Do you guys think depression is playing a big roll in this? I have a two week supply of anti depressants I could start taking until I get a refill (personally I want to try a new one but I could talk to the doc at the next appointment and take paxil till then...) Im not sure but i'll take any advice.
PS; benadryl and valerian root have not helped a bit.
Some background info;
Kicked heroin w/ methadone 4 years ago. Went clean off everything except marijuana and lots of alcohol. A year later picked up the opiates again and started using oxy 4 times a week for 3 years. Then I picked up a benzo habit as well.... cut back to maybe 2 days a week of opiates and 4 days a week of xanax (usually 3-5 mgs). I stopped taking an anti depressant about 3 months ago because I felt it had a few side effects and wasnt work well, or at all. I took ecstasy 6 weeks later (made sure the SSRI was completely out of my system. I took a fairly high dose. A month ago my oxy habit had picked up some (to 4 days a week like my xanax use so I cut them both out, the opies cold turkey, and I weaned down the benzos (in a quick fashion but not at a dangerous speed)... Usually marijuana will help me sleep at night but that has stopped working. After some good time away from the xanax ive started eating those not even to get fucked up, in desperation of sleep. Last night I took 75 mgs of temazepam and 5 mgs of xanax I was slightly buzzed and then smoked 2 bowls of high grade pot. This made me drowsy but all I could do was toss and turn. I couldn't believe it!!! Im starting to think depression has snuck up on me (I feel sad 5 out of 7 days a week these days) and im sure the ecstasy in Miami didnt help my situation..... Ive had about 15 hours of sleep in 5 days.... only 4 in the last 48 hours or so..... I just took a handful of xanax and am about to commence smoking a gram of marijuana in attempts to sleep even 4 hours... just 4 would be so nice....Do you guys think depression is playing a big roll in this? I have a two week supply of anti depressants I could start taking until I get a refill (personally I want to try a new one but I could talk to the doc at the next appointment and take paxil till then...) Im not sure but i'll take any advice.
PS; benadryl and valerian root have not helped a bit.
