Insomnia?
I don't know if this is the right section to put this in. It was either this or TDS, but didn't think it would be apt in there.
Since the age of 15-16 I have had insomnia (to a degree). I have had problems sleeping for as long as I can remember, but it seemed to really kick in when I went to college. During the 3 years I was there I was getting about 2-3 hours sleep a night on average.
Thinking it was just a teenage thing I ignored it for the first few years. After a while I went to the doctor, they prescribed me Tamazapam, it didn't help me get to sleep, it just meant that when I fell asleep it would be much much harder to wake up which meant I was late for college and nearly got thrown out.
I went back and got prescribed something like Citalamapram (don't remember was years ago). This was supposed to be a mood enhancer that I would have to take twice a day. It made me feel like I was dropping E when on the bus going to college in the morning, but didn't help me sleep.
I finished college and thought that it may get back to normal... Seems I was wrong.
I went to a different doctors about it about a year or so ago, and their advice was "go for a run before bed" and "go to bed earlier".
I did the running and exercising before bed, went to bed earlier, but just lay there aching for hours.
Fast forward to today, I will go to bed at 1am, 2am, 3am whatever (I work evenings to help accommodate). I will lay in bed for hours, 6-7-8 hours, eyes closed, music on, music off, doesn't make any difference.
Weed used to help a little, but my tolerance appears to be going up and I have reached the limit I will allow myself to spend on a regular basis. Valium seemed to work at first, but after getting up to 40mg and nothing I decided it's probably best to leave that there before I end up with another addiction.
To be honest it's driving me fucking mad. For the most part I will end up falling asleep for a couple of hours after laying there for 5-6-7+ hours. But sometimes that doesn't happen and I will be awake for literally days.
One time a few months back I had been at work all Friday, didn't sleep Friday night, went on a trip on the Saturday, the van got stuck in the mud, spent 6 hours pushing it out, got to a bed where we were going, was shattered but couldn't sleep, when we left there on the Sunday morning, I got back to my bed Sunday afternoon, was exhausted but only slept for 3 hours and then couldn't sleep till Monday morning.
For the last 9 years, people have been saying "why not just go to bed earlier" and so on, as if I hadn't already thought of that.
It's affecting most elements of my life. I have started up business plans with a friend, something I want to do to get away from the shit job I do now. But I keep missing the meet ups because I've finally passed out, 3 hours before I am supposed to be up and meeting them to start sorting it.
Have started musical collaboration with another friend, but again, I'm missing sessions or being so tired I can barley function. It's making me unreliable when I plan to meet up with friends. And totally unreliable when it comes to potential relationships.
I like to think I'm a musician, but am not getting a chance to do anything in the day because I will have laid in bed from 1am till 10am before passing out or managing to smoke myself unconscious and then have to be up at 2pm for work.
Anyone with any similar experiences or problems, how do you manage it?
Anyone overcome a similar problem? How did you manage to do that?
Many thanks

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