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bigtim

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Yo BlueLight Peeps...

I grew up in Suburban Philly and have lived in several large North Eastern U.S cities in my life. I'm now living back in Philadelphia and dabble in several semi-legal neuro-pleasing compounds. I was wildly addicted to powder and rock cocaine for a couple of years...of course vodka on ice went well with the powder, but nothing goes well with rock except solitude and television or hookers/coke whores and television/porn. But those are stories for another time.

I managed to get myself out of the coke scene with most of my sanity and a couple of bucks left. Now I stay away from most alcohol and coke, but I do like my occasional Vicodin, bag of dope, perc and OC (miss those things...so now any old opiate will do, come to think of it.) I've never spiked a vein and never will, but I've snorted just about every pill I can get. I find that the microplane graters do a good job on those fucked up OPs...bed bath and beyond sells them with a little cup attached underneath (that catches everything you grate) for about $10. Best dime you ever laid down. They actually work great on ALL pills...and the occasional dub of blow I mix with a couple of bags of diesel. OK, so I'm not COMPLETELY out of the coke scene. Just the rock scene, fo sho.

Never learned how to do the cold water extraction and its a wonder I'm not dead with all the acetometophine I've had to eat to get my opiates.

I love my dugout and bat for a one hit of great pot once in a while...I was too old for the "blunt" scene. (Rolling up an eighth of pot in a cigar wrapper just sounds like an expensive waste to me. I guess I'm missing something.)

Used to drop tabs and go to concerts...Ecstasy (now I guess it's called Molly) was a lot of fun when I had a girlfriend who would do it with me and stay up all night and fuck. I shroomed last summer at a show at the Mann Music Center - but I'll never drop again. The craziest drug binge I've ever been on lasted 3 days and nights, no sleep and 8 different types. That was in my 20's...and I'm well past that now.

So that's a little bout me. How bout you?

(I guess eventually I'll learn to use all those cool HTML things at the top of this page. Woulda made my introduction a little more aesthetically pleasing.)
 
Welcome to Bluelight BigTim!

Yowza, quite a history you have huh? I'm sure your life is just as great, if not better when you're sober.

Hookers, solitude, television and porn? No, that can't be what your life is all about.

You mention going to a concert? What music do you enjoy? :)
 
music and me and more

I'm a rock n' roll old head. The Mann Music Center concert at which I shroomed was the Black Crowes. I did the Grateful Dead thing in my 20's and like a lot of "classic rock," but try and keep my ears open for new blues-based rock. Robert Randolph and the Family Band isn't exactly new, maybe newer. I def like some good rap/hip hop...New stuff like Eminiem's new tracks and old stuff like the Beastie Boys. Hova is classic rap now, huh? Meek Mill is a young Philly guy who's doing good stuff these days.

Yes, indeed, I consider myself much more sober than I was and life is much better with just a minimal amount of substances. Of course the AA and NA Nazis would tell you that a sip of wine or beer means you're going to spin out of control and go on a week long bender. I haven't been drunk since September, 2010, because I quit GETTING DRUNK, but I didn't quit having an occasional beer or glass of wine. As I said, the AA Nazis think that it's a black or white thing - and lecture you while they drink coffee and smoke cigarettes. Nicotine and caffeine is perfectly fine to them, but they'll tell you that prescription pyschotripic drugs like wellbutrin are evil. That makes sense, right?

And hookers and coke whores are way, way gone and I don't miss any of it. I now live with a wonderful woman who has no substance, nor psychological issues. (Yes, there IS a Santa Clause, Virginia.) She has some rules about bringing substances into the house or using substance in the house and I follow them to the letter. She's the best thing that's ever happened to me.

Anyway, Cupcakes, what about music you enjoy? And your history and/or where you from? I'm feeling kinda exposed doing all the revelatory posting here....how about telling me about something what you used to do, or still do now?
 
I'm Eric, friends call me Shmeric because it's funny. Nineteen year old irish/italian/german male.
Surprising huh? :)

I just want to make everyone smile, it's what life is all about.

Pursuiting the medical field because I freaking LOVE researching science. Mainly helping the wounded. First I have to graduate highschool though.

Last year around this time I enrolled in GED classes. Spent five months, got the invitation to take the test just to realize I want a highschool experience. lol

Me in highschool back then? Let's just say I was shocked to hear I had any credits at all. Was high most of the time, even had ambulance pull me out three times. Embarrasing? No, just funny. :)

Was a socially awkward, anxious, depressed, self-loathing loser whose only friends got high with me or shared my bloodline.

Now I'm currently four days sober who loves expressing the magic of friendship. "Optimism, compassion, generosity, integrity, devotion and unity." My own version of My Little Pony's "Elements of Harmony."

Very tolerant of everyone who doesn't purposely harm another physically, emotionally and mentally; rationally of course.

David Bowie, Queen, Mastodon, Eminem, Juicy Jay, Meek Mill, Metallica, Van Halen, The Beatles, Billy Joel, Megadeth, Iron Maiden, Black Sabbath, Slipknot, Chief Keef and Katty Perry are some of my favorite artists.

Just appreciating all that life offers me. :D

I really like Eminem's new song Rap God but haven't listened to any other song on that tape. Mind suggesting some good ones?
 
Can't talk music right now...I need to get in the shower to get to work, but I felt it important to say one thing: 4 days sober is GREAT and you're almost over the hump. Days 3 and 4 are the toughest....Day 5 gets a little easier, Day 6 a little easier still...and so on. It's important to abstain for a while (I went completely sober for over a year) before I decided I wanted to dabble and control it - which I've been able to do. You don't have to do a year - it's all about ONE DAY AT A TIME. The AA & NA Nazis have that right, at least. Don't think about anything but not using RIGHT NOW. Focus on that and the rest will take care of itself. Also...STAY BUSY. Idle hands are the devil's tools? NO, idle hands are the DRUG DEALER'S tools.

I wanna hear you make it through Day 5 sober, Shemeric. You can do it...and it's important. I wish I had the 20-25 years back I wasted wacked out on coke and/or alcohol. Stay busy, focus on right now, and you can do it. GOOD LUCK!
 
Enjoy your day, you deserve it. :)

Thank you for the marvelous words of encouragement. Drugs just get boring after a while, you know? My sobriety isn't just for my health. :P

When will I use again? Who knows? For now I'm not concerened with such aspects.

You're a very astounding soul, don't ever forget that!
 
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