The whole mt thing has finally finished and i feel like i can breathe again. Hopefully no more 16 hour days, constant anxiety and having to hold everyone and everything together. Despite what some people think, i am not superwoman but just a human being with feelings n shit and no i can't handle being pulled in all directions no matter how much you pay me.
I had a life, did things, had hobbies. Now this is all I do practically. And drink. And take benzos. All in the hope of escaping to a quiet place and feeling something real, even if artificially induced.
I miss intimacy. Having someone to hug, wake up to, say i love you to, kiss goodnight. Sometimes i think im just destined to be a high powered lonely banker with noone to come home to. Maybe its time to get a cat? Lol
I had a life, did things, had hobbies. Now this is all I do practically. And drink. And take benzos. All in the hope of escaping to a quiet place and feeling something real, even if artificially induced.
I miss intimacy. Having someone to hug, wake up to, say i love you to, kiss goodnight. Sometimes i think im just destined to be a high powered lonely banker with noone to come home to. Maybe its time to get a cat? Lol