PsychedelicLove
Greenlighter
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- Jun 11, 2011
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This is a prose-poem I wrote after my father (failed) suicide attempt. It deals with mental illness a bit and is a general expression of agony. Let me know what you think of it.
INSANITY
You want to leave you can’t cords needles all around your frame. Crying screaming, insanity’s pet dragon stays in the doghouse in every lawn down the street, arrays of sadness time change…drifting off again, you’ll have to forgive my dambusting emotions, white water, cutting the canyons like a goddamn pizza I could never do right
Fuck it all I’m gonna burn, I’ll be your slave and defy any false master–yes you must be the one, I know your voice my ears perk up come to your lap to hide jealousy failed desire..burning candle drips its wax, I drip my tears die in flames
So many ideas I could have moved to brilliance but instead I’m now a statue still coolly looking over the city in the misty breeze
Water cut in the suburban lights, glass diamonds fizzle in the air–I want to sell you my dream, kiss you around the arches of your eyebrows, tackled down into a silent room the insanity torture of slow curves of the tongue
Just an excuse my subconscious guilt glazes my eyes over sandstorm of pain, slash interior skull wallpaper shredded in the fury the blazing fury FUCK I HATE–
Threats like thorns still sparkle, fireworks in the sky-canvas of my mind, crackle, the ice lightly cracks insinuating spiderwebs across the vast field of my vision… who wants to take credit for this?I’m dead.
Wait come back soul sucks away from my body pulling away from the urgency of a sensual kiss. In a moment, all streams cutting back down the hill saturating my brain overflow the rain the poor (old man snore “how long’s he been out?”) Crashing rain breaks the ground, avalanche of drops parade into town the headache the insanity insanity insanity echo please pray for me
And I’ll watch you walk over the ocean you new future kids, you’ve got plans in backpockets I’m instead puffing on a Marlboro Red across the tracks with my new friends, Desire and Death
INSANITY
You want to leave you can’t cords needles all around your frame. Crying screaming, insanity’s pet dragon stays in the doghouse in every lawn down the street, arrays of sadness time change…drifting off again, you’ll have to forgive my dambusting emotions, white water, cutting the canyons like a goddamn pizza I could never do right
Fuck it all I’m gonna burn, I’ll be your slave and defy any false master–yes you must be the one, I know your voice my ears perk up come to your lap to hide jealousy failed desire..burning candle drips its wax, I drip my tears die in flames
So many ideas I could have moved to brilliance but instead I’m now a statue still coolly looking over the city in the misty breeze
Water cut in the suburban lights, glass diamonds fizzle in the air–I want to sell you my dream, kiss you around the arches of your eyebrows, tackled down into a silent room the insanity torture of slow curves of the tongue
Just an excuse my subconscious guilt glazes my eyes over sandstorm of pain, slash interior skull wallpaper shredded in the fury the blazing fury FUCK I HATE–
Threats like thorns still sparkle, fireworks in the sky-canvas of my mind, crackle, the ice lightly cracks insinuating spiderwebs across the vast field of my vision… who wants to take credit for this?I’m dead.
Wait come back soul sucks away from my body pulling away from the urgency of a sensual kiss. In a moment, all streams cutting back down the hill saturating my brain overflow the rain the poor (old man snore “how long’s he been out?”) Crashing rain breaks the ground, avalanche of drops parade into town the headache the insanity insanity insanity echo please pray for me
And I’ll watch you walk over the ocean you new future kids, you’ve got plans in backpockets I’m instead puffing on a Marlboro Red across the tracks with my new friends, Desire and Death
