Insane in the membrane

I went to an NA meeting last night... it was actually pretty heavy... some people walked out because of the lack of respect that was very present at that particular meeting. Most of the people were my age but some acted like they were in fucking highschool. Laughing and talking the entire time people were sharing...and some motherfuckers get deep...and they come to these things for support and you get asshole regulars who think they own the place just using it as a social gathering talking and making jokes...it wasn't right. I didn't share... I'm quite self-concious so to stand up in a room full of strangers and tell them ANYTHING about me seems like quite a feat. I'm not sure I'll be returning to friday nights in Bohemia...not my scene...
So all plans to go into the city are squashed...maybe... i need to call my friend to see if he's really into hanging out... on drugs I'd be there in a heart beat but i'm getting a real feeling of social anxiety and im actually nervous to call someone ive known since I was 12, someone who invited me to spend the day with him... Weird? I think so

 

Luckily I haven't encountered any rude people at my NA meetings. Laughing and talking the entire time is so disrespectful to others in the group... they should have been kicked out. As for the asshole regulars, I suppose they can make it difficult for newcomers. I remember listening to them share their stories, and they sounded so deep and insightful... I didn't really know what to say when it was my turn to speak. I sometimes find NA useful for support, but I have to be in the right mood to attend a meeting. There was one last night that I ended up skipping.