Cocaine In a love hate relationship

[brandonh354]

Cocaine it makes me feel so good and it's one of the only things I think about. I'm 16 and spend all my money on drugs. I like to drink copious amounts of beer on coke and recently I feel like I'm dieing like I'm spiraling down into a deep depression I can't get out of like I fell and now I can't get up.
I'm so sick of what I do but I feel like I can't help it it's who I am. How do you just quit coke cold turkey it seems literarily impossible I can't talk to anyone about this so I came here

 

[tackyspiral]

Welcome to the wonderful world of addiction!!!!

cocaine is an evil whore i agree!!!!
quitting anything at all is really hard at first.... but after a lil time passes you start to feel a lot better
the cravings can be really hard to deal with believe me i know
btw... i joined bl when i was 16 and fell in love with blow

 

[adam west]

its really not that hard. you need strong discipline and something to occupy your time,

 

[tackyspiral]

just keep posting on bluelight... it can help!!!

 

[Ryan D.]

I read somewhere that large quantities of tyrosine can help (cheapest is powder) - they'll help you create dopamine naturally so you may feel less of a need to resort to cocaine to raise levels of dopamine.
Although it's hardly at the same level i found that working out was really helpful when trying to quit smoking; again, aside from the other multiple benefits of exercise it ought to help raise dopamine levels - if your dopamine levels are sufficiently high you might not crave so much.
Also, in my experience - if you're in the right mood - cycling for instance can provide more relief than you'd imagine - an excellent way to work out all the restlessness and frustration produced from craving.

 

[Ryan D.]

I have also encountered a number of incredible reports of people overcoming drug addictions through use of Ayahuasca; including cocaine.

 

[Ryan D.]

N-acetyl L tyrosine may work better than standard tyrosine

 

[Swimmingdancer]

The hardest part of quitting cocaine is mental. You need to remind yourself that it will get better (and honestly it often gets easier quite quickly) and that you don't HAVE to act on cravings (even though it may feel like it) you CAN choose not to use. You may want to check out The Dark Side forum for mental support. I really think it's important to do things to work on your mental addiction and the reasons why you are addicted to coke in the first place in order to heal, whether that be self-help (books, trying to change your way of thinking, mindfulness, etc), therapy, meetings, whatever you think will be suitable for you personally.

I have also encountered a number of incredible reports of people overcoming drug addictions through use of Ayahuasca

Yes, like me . But I do have to say I do not recommend people take ayahuasca without thoroughly researching it and using under the supervision of someone experienced. It's not for everyone and can be very challenging (yet also very rewarding and life-changing), and it needs to be respected.

Also Ryan, for future reference you can just use the "Edit" button at the bottom of your posts to add more instead of posting 3 times in a row

 

[Mr.Scagnattie]

Tough love time...

You're 16 for God's sake... just fuckin' stop! Hah. It's going to get 10x worse and stopping will be even more difficult if you're still doing this crap into your mid twenties. There is no psychical aspect of cocaine withdrawal.. at least nowhere near the sense of a true psychical dependency as with opiates, benzos, and alcohol.. So it's just the cravings you will have to contend with.. And, yes that's not easy but.. try and exert some will power before it all gets sapped out of you from years of addiction.

Do yourself a favor.. go out and focus on getting your licence, banging hot highschool chics, and figuring out where you want to go to college so you can bang more hot chics. Fuck the drugs man.

 

[Znegative]

^for real.

OP, you can PM me any time you want if you need someone to talk to on a more personal basis. I've struggled with IV cocaine (I injected cocaine) since I was 19, and now, at the age of 24, I've finally managed to stay away from that crap for almost half a year (unfortunately, I still need to quit some other drugs too).

While cocaine is easily one of the most addictive popular drugs of abuse, there is one good thing about it, and that is you don't become physically dependent upon it, like you will when you abuse opiates or benzo's. This means that you CAN function without it. You may be depressed, bored, angry, etc, but you will be able to function. I'm not going to lie to you, it can take a while for the depression caused by excessive cocaine use to go away, but it does as long as you stick with it and don't use any other drugs (specifically any other kind of stimulant-meth, Adderall, Ritalin, Focalin, MDMA, etc..). Also, you will recover faster if you make it a point to occupy your time with activity's that you have always enjoyed that are not drug related (sports, art, writing, whatever you like).

 

[Jimmy_Pop]

Just make a serious attempt to quit now.

Read all the literature on quitting that you can find online, and decide which strategies seem best for you.

Cocaine is not physically addictive, so chemical quitting aids *might* not be as helpful as just having a good distraction or something.

 

[tricomb]

I was shooting coke at 16 and man, oh man, you will save yourself so much anguish, pain, and money, if you listen to me, Mr. Scagnattie, and ZNegative.

It's super important to weigh the risks vs. reward when your using drugs, it's a key principle to harm reduction strategy. The risks associated with the reward you hope to attain are so high and dangerous that it makes the reward not worth the risks.

Obviously this is an extremely basic and simple way to put it, and drug addiction is of course, highly complicated and variable, but it stands as truth. Out of all the drugs out there, cocaine is one of the most addictive, most dangerous, most commonly adulterated/cut drug out there, and all for what? 20 minutes of intoxication that is only sometimes fun for you and is almost always toxic to the people around you who care about you.

I don't even enjoy cocaine anymore, so I don't use it, nor do I use needles anymore. The thought of it makes me nauseous and fearful, and hopefully you don't have to be where I've been to recognize that it it brings nothing to the table but misery and pain. Once you conquer the psychological aspect of it, you will stop putting yourself in situations where cocaine is going to be served or offered to you.

Drugs make us rationalize/justify our drug use, to ourselves, to others. Drugs can delude you into believing some really crazy shit that only makes sense to you, so be warned, fucking up with your bodies reward pathways can and will lead to changes in your behavior, beliefs, and body.

 

[Jimmy_Pop]

Drugs can delude you into believing some really crazy shit that only makes sense to you, so be warned, fucking up with your bodies reward pathways can and will lead to changes in your behavior, beliefs, and body.

The older I get, and the longer I remain an addict, the more I realize this as the truth.

 

[Choosing_Positive]

I was shooting coke at 16 and man, oh man, you will save yourself so much anguish, pain, and money, if you listen to me, Mr. Scagnattie, and ZNegative.

It's super important to weigh the risks vs. reward when your using drugs, it's a key principle to harm reduction strategy. The risks associated with the reward you hope to attain are so high and dangerous that it makes the reward not worth the risks.

Obviously this is an extremely basic and simple way to put it, and drug addiction is of course, highly complicated and variable, but it stands as truth. Out of all the drugs out there, cocaine is one of the most addictive, most dangerous, most commonly adulterated/cut drug out there, and all for what? 20 minutes of intoxication that is only sometimes fun for you and is almost always toxic to the people around you who care about you.

I don't even enjoy cocaine anymore, so I don't use it, nor do I use needles anymore. The thought of it makes me nauseous and fearful, and hopefully you don't have to be where I've been to recognize that it it brings nothing to the table but misery and pain. Once you conquer the psychological aspect of it, you will stop putting yourself in situations where cocaine is going to be served or offered to you.

Drugs make us rationalize/justify our drug use, to ourselves, to others. Drugs can delude you into believing some really crazy shit that only makes sense to you, so be warned, fucking up with your bodies reward pathways can and will lead to changes in your behavior, beliefs, and body.

Eloquent quote my friend. So much truth in these words, so to the newer user: pay attention and remember these words of wisdom - as they will help you when times are dark and you cannot find a friend.

 

[thelastclubkid]

it took me 15 years to learn to control cocaine.... and now i can... but i dont think for a second that it cant get away from me again, its just that tricky of a drug to manage... that notwithstanding i still hate it basically because i see it wreck all the ppl around me instead...

anwyway i just want to know how all these 16 year old kids can even afford a coke habit??

 

[pbuilder]

Cocaine is a nasty filthy ass drug, and just reading this thread gave me a huge craving and I haven't used in almost 6 months. The comedown and anxiety and depression alone snap me back into reality though, and those memories of that sudden fear and terror that came at the end of a night using coke haunt me. Get away from the people that give you any sort of access to the drug, delete dealers #'s and tell you coke head friends to go fuck themselves.

 

[AceBoogie4209]

there are people with holes in their septum, people who resort to IV-ing coke because their nasal passages are completely clogged with scar tissue, people who wake up to a nice bloody scabby booger falling from their nose when they tie their shoe...and still use blow on the daily just to get rid of the itch to do it, thats how fucked up coke is.

 

[Jabberwocky]

Jesus I nearly spat my grapefruit juice out again at the above post. What the hell is wrong with me? And really you shouldn't be encouraging a kid to continue his coke habit.

I wish I had of fucking learnt that at 16. Now I'm 20, I regret taking opiates so much I wish I was dead sometimes. (been abusing them since i was 14.) everything without opiates is a fucking chore now, I've fucked my reward pathways so badly and I really need to quit now while I can.

Take advise from everyone on here, stop now, nip it in the bud so to speak. See a therapist, get more active and stay away from that shit. It's a life destroying drug. You won't realise the damage now, but 3-4-5 years down the line oh boy will you wish you hadn't of been born.

 

[seawead]

I was going to start a new thread but my story is relevant here.
I'm 38 and have been using coke for about 15 years. First once in a while, then more & more, then most weekends in the last couple of years.
I have been at home on my own for the last week and have done between .5 - 1g a day.
And this is the £100 proper stuff.
I've realised what a fucking pointless shit drug it is.
You basically go through a cycle of feel high for 10 minutes, feel sketchy like you're worried about having a heart attack for the next 50 minutes, then after that hour feel completely fine, and are ready for the next line!
After a week of being at home, chatting shit to people on skype, looking at porn, I have realised it is now or never to stop.
So when this g runs out this afternoon that's it. 100% dedicated to stop for good. (I'll check back to report progress)

Got some valiums to ease through the next couple of days, just need to stay on guard over the coming weeks.

To the 16 / 20 year olds on here just don't bother getting into coke, yeah the high is great but it is seriously outweighed by the cost / health issues / moodiness etc etc