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Greenlighter
- Joined
- May 5, 2016
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Hello everyone,
I was referred here by a friend. Right now I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place. To give you some background of what I'm going through....
I'm a spiritual person who is very serious about his beliefs. I am labeled as schizoaffective since my last hospital visit and for 10 years, I was labeled as by polar. Now, whenever i start to get what the pact team calls "religious" red flags go up everywhere for them. I don't do anything to harm anyone, I pray for people in public on the streets, asking them if I can of course, and i get very deeply into the word of God.
My problem is this, when I'm drinking and smoking, they, the pact team, don't care, nor put any effort into helping me recover. When i am doing well, and following my God as I understand Him, I get locked away in a AP level (psych ward) and put on heavy anti psychotics, this in term breaks my connection with God as i understand Him, and I begin to become zombified, as it has already started. As for explaining my connection with God, those of you who do not believe, this would be my motivation, higher understanding, and consciousness.
I am currently on 10 mg of abilify by mouth daily, and a 30 mg shot. I am also taking 600mg of seraquil and the team tells me it's not a high dosage. As of late, I have been getting headaches and paranoia sets in after an hour, and I have been forced from my new medications to sleep 11 hours a day, unlike my normal 3-5 with an evening nap. I also was not tapered off of zoloft I was taking for a month, so that may be contributing.
I've looked up some meds that i think will be better suited for me... tegretal and lamactal sound like a good combination. I'm just not sure what to do, I can feel myself becoming less of myself everyday and I don't like it.
Please help.
I was referred here by a friend. Right now I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place. To give you some background of what I'm going through....
I'm a spiritual person who is very serious about his beliefs. I am labeled as schizoaffective since my last hospital visit and for 10 years, I was labeled as by polar. Now, whenever i start to get what the pact team calls "religious" red flags go up everywhere for them. I don't do anything to harm anyone, I pray for people in public on the streets, asking them if I can of course, and i get very deeply into the word of God.
My problem is this, when I'm drinking and smoking, they, the pact team, don't care, nor put any effort into helping me recover. When i am doing well, and following my God as I understand Him, I get locked away in a AP level (psych ward) and put on heavy anti psychotics, this in term breaks my connection with God as i understand Him, and I begin to become zombified, as it has already started. As for explaining my connection with God, those of you who do not believe, this would be my motivation, higher understanding, and consciousness.
I am currently on 10 mg of abilify by mouth daily, and a 30 mg shot. I am also taking 600mg of seraquil and the team tells me it's not a high dosage. As of late, I have been getting headaches and paranoia sets in after an hour, and I have been forced from my new medications to sleep 11 hours a day, unlike my normal 3-5 with an evening nap. I also was not tapered off of zoloft I was taking for a month, so that may be contributing.
I've looked up some meds that i think will be better suited for me... tegretal and lamactal sound like a good combination. I'm just not sure what to do, I can feel myself becoming less of myself everyday and I don't like it.
Please help.