i'm very very concerned about my health :/

[thizzin' since 98]

sorry for another thread guys, but lately, i've really been freaking out.

so i've only been rolling for 4 months, and have taken 30-40 pills over that period of time.

so far, its been a month of being completely sober from alcohol, weed, and thizz, and i feel weirder then ever.

i'm completely emotionless all day, every day, from the minute I wake up, to the minute i go to sleep. everything feels surreal, like im just watching everything in the world, but im not in it.

i often feel like im still on some sort of drug but im not, i feel like i have a head change, sometimes feel tingly, nauseous, don't have much of an appetite, have constant anxiety and anxiety attacks, sometimes have crying spells, ugg, the list just goes on. I just straight up feel WEIRD. and it's getting very old.

my last pill was a blue rolex, and thats what set on all these symptoms, i think the pill might have been a piperazine? or a meth bomb? :/ i dont know.

im trying to stay positive and not dwell on it, but when my whole body feels out of balance, and i feel zoned out and surreal, how do I not think about it? :'(

i'm asking for advice, please someone tell me how to get rid of these feelings. at this point i'd give an arm, to feel how i felt 4 months ago :/ before the thizz. i don't know how much longer i can put up with this feeling, if im not going to be able to enjoy life anymore, why continue in it? :'(

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and another thing, i dont get how i've only taken maybe 40 pills over 4 months, and i have friends who have taken 100+, 200+ pills over 2 or 3 years, and they still feel fine. it boggles my mind honestly.

 

[Kindatired]

Go for the standard detox method. Lots of exercise, tons of fruit/fruit juice and veggies, vitamins and as much good sleep you can get (tRy to stay away from sleep aids, even OTC stuff. Also stay away from all drugs, even smokes and coffee. A week or so of that and you will probably be feeling like gold. Exercise and good food is the key to recovery most of the time.

 

[Supeudol]

^ Agreed. I'm still feeling shitty from benzo withdrawal and opiate withdrawal at the same time. But, eat well, and exercise, and drink plenty of water.

 

[highhooked]

Its depersonalization bra google it.

I went through the same thing exactly what you described feeling zoned out and emotionless and i got the head sensations your talking about, anxiety, all that shit mane.

Your health is fine your jsut going through a stage for me it lasted like 4 months(and during that time i did zero drugs but still drank alch) take the above posters advice definately excercise and take supplements, eat healthy allll that shiiaaatttt.

Edit: Just wanted to add this you summed it up perfectly ha

"everything feels surreal, like im just watching everything in the world, but im not in it."

 

[Pegasus]

This is classic MDMA abuse symptoms (though you surely were taking other things in those pills as well). People appear to regain pretty much everything lost during an MDMA binge like this, but it is also generally pretty unpleasant getting those emotions back.

 

[StaySedated]

thats what heavy MDMA use does, your serotonin receptors are a bit fried(not literally). i went through the same thing when i popped XTC pills frequently.

give it time and and stick to healthy habits and it will subside.

 

[BananasAndOranges]

thizz PM me I have been through severe mdxx abuse I can help

 

[BananasAndOranges]

you cant probably ok heres what you need. Sorry guys but he needs Benzos. Get on Valium or Klonopin which Ever you feel best with. Ativan Is to sedating and no you need one of those 2. It took me 2 months to come back to reality. Its such a pain but please don't abuse anymore. It hurts you. Maybe Adderall or Dexedrine could help you a bit for depression.

 

[ColtDan]

no he doesn't need benzos. do what Kindatired suggested and detox, you will feel much better.

 

[somedud]

Benzos dude, are you serious?

His symptoms are based on his cognition, and benzos blunt cognition greatly. Ong term use leads to permanent cognitive impairments, wiki it. Not to mention when he comes off the benzos, he'll have crazy withdrawals, have to deal with dp again due to anxiety relapse, and then have to deal with the cognitive impairments on top of that which take 6 months to subside?

Bad call.

Listen bro, follow my post in your last thread.

Your suffering IS you healing. Like I said, when your brains at its most tortured state, only then can it compensate by repairing itself and making the right adaptations to bring itself back to homeostasis. Throwing drugs into the mix will only throw your natural chemistry off more, INCLUDING ssris. Your "natural" brain chemistry, is the OLD you that you just said you wanted back right? So chill, drugs will NOT bring back your old balence.

TiME and exercise will! Believe that.

Btw, take your suffering and turn it into fucking ANGER, snap the fuck out! Punch a pillow, take a bat and beat a punching bag, scream at the top of your lungs!

You will notice that therapists say, rage and release can be your healing, holding that shyt in will kill you.

LET it out! Then, I gaurentee you, you will feel more like your old self than you have in a while, trust me. Just try it once, it'll switch you from running on cortisol, which is high stress, to a soothing realease of oxytocin.

 

[sipx]

you cant probably ok heres what you need. Sorry guys but he needs Benzos. Get on Valium or Klonopin which Ever you feel best with. Ativan Is to sedating and no you need one of those 2. It took me 2 months to come back to reality. Its such a pain but please don't abuse anymore. It hurts you. Maybe Adderall or Dexedrine could help you a bit for depression.

In the effort of harm reduction, this is a piss poor post..


OP--> Follow the advice of all posters beyond this dude. Seriously, stay away from caffeine, alcohol, nicotine....etc. I've been through similar, it does pass man. You probably couldn't have caused enough damage in realistic terms to be "stuck this way".

Fruits/veggies and exercise. Lots of exercise can help clear the deepest depression from the corners of your mind. Pop some multivitamins, make sure to take a b-complex daily after meals.

 

[NeighborhoodThreat]

^Exercise and eating well, getting enough sleep make a world of a difference.

Taking vitamins actually helps a lot more than you would think.

Benzos should be viewed as a last-resort, not a first-line option.

 

[MaybeHad2Much2fast]

^

Benzos should be viewed as a last-resort, not a first-line option.

^Agreed!
I have people who are close in my life who depend on Benzos to keep going Makes me sad but hey man take it from me it all comes in due time. I had a similar situation that was more reality based depression (REally bad candy trip) but it youll be fine its a process eat healthy excersise stay Positive Easyer said than done, But i hope all the best for you.....If you have something you used to do as a kid or recently for that matter pick it back up (Guitar,Soccer,Arts&craft) doing things that used to make you happy still make you happy.
Best of luck

 

[joezraptor]

I would highly recommend that you start taking piracetam daily. You will find tons of info on it in the Ecstasy Discussion or by using the search engine.
Other than that, eat as healthy as possible and exercise. Try to go out and occupy yourself. You will feel better, it just takes time.