whiteroom67
Bluelighter
I know that many people with anxiety and panic disorder use Passion Flower as an alternative to conventional anti-anxiety medication. Would that work the same as a benzo if the trip gets rough? I have never taken Passion Flower but supposedly it chills you right out.
I wouldn't say Passion Flower works the same as a benzo, but it could help just as much if enough is taken. I have tried it and it seemed to do little for me, but my doses were also pretty low (~1 gram) and again everyone is different. Also, Passion Flower is a mild MAOI, so you may need to be careful taking it with anything else, especially something like Zoloft. If you are taking yourself off of Zoloft though it shouldn't be an issue, and PF's MAOI properties are definitely mild in comparison to other things.
My experiences with psyches is that they can help or they can hurt. As others have said, set and setting are everything. Also like jason said keep the dose low for sure. Don't expect a cure of anything, as a matter of fact don't expect anything in general, they key would be to go with the flow of it. But they could help if used properly, just listen to your mind and body and relax. Give yourself time afterward to integrate the experience. If you try it and do have a good experience, don't plunge into tripping every other weekend to learn more and more, you will only end up leaving yourself behind and end up in a confused place. On the other hand, if you have what you feel was a bad trip, but dismiss it or fight against what you felt either. Calmly accept what it was and allow yourself to understand what was bad about it, and why. Watch those thoughts and feelings - during and after the trip.
If you were to try a psychedelic, I would say mescaline tends to be the gentlest while also being beautiful and profound, but it's also the hardest to find. LSD is also good, as it tends to be easy to direct thoughts with for a lot of people, but it can last a long while and can feel somewhat artificial. It's more analytical, but ironically is good for artistic expression (playing music, dancing, art - all of these though will be characterized by more geometric and angular thought patters and movements, as opposed to free-flowing organic movements, just my experience, but it's cool). It can also be pretty stimulating. Mushrooms are the shortest acting and feel natural and can definitely be quite fun, but as someone else said they are a bit of a wild card and can be a little unpredictable in where they will take you. Those are the main 3, though there are others obviously.
Meditation, exercise, diet and yoga are other options that may help you just as much, with or without psychedelics. You seem smart and emotionally mature, so generally I would say you should be fine, but of course, I can't read your genetics so there's no way of knowing anything for sure regarding what could happen. Either way, if you do trip, just don't go into it with a lot of fear, because that will do nothing but unnecessarily increase the likelihood of a bad trip. I come of a family of addicts, and I myself am one also (opiates mostly, and Kratom, but I like to do almost anything), and I have to say I have gotten some pretty good insights into my own addictions through the use of psychedelics. Now this is a good example... it didn't cure my addiction - I still use on and off, sometimes more than I like, but I do have a clearer perspective of my addiction and understand it better now due to my use of psychedelics (especially Ayahuasca), and I wasn't even using them for that purpose, it just kind of happened. So, it probably won't cure your problems, but it may help you understand them better, see them from a different perspective, and may give you some tools (knowledge, strength, etc) to use when you do decide to face and conquer your problems, which will only ultimately be done by yourself, again, with or without psychedelics.