Thanks for the good advice. I've managed to cut down to about 120mg a day of Hydrocodone, and I still feel mild withdrawals at that level. I just can't keep doing this to myself or my family, I know I will die if I don't stop.
I am doing therapy in addition to the MAT option, but methadone isn't an option for me with the rules of having to go to a clinic every day.
I want OFF this stuff. I want to do the Sublicade shot and do the 3 month taper and be done. I just don't know if I can deal with the uncertainty or the depression.. I feel so hopeless and desperate that I'm out of options.
Hello AddictedAndHatingit,Very interesting. Got to love those patents. Thanks for the info!
I hope this is the appropriate reply area, I am still learning the protocol to reply it seems. Nonetheless, it took me 10 months to feel good again, after having to go CT due to losing medical, during my treatment, with Subox. I went though Effexor WD and Subox WD, in tandem. Truth be told, I do not remember much about it at all, so I must have suffered trauma, due to the emotional part, for periods of the 10 months, and must have buried most of it. I do recall the pain, mentally, and only started to come out of it, after being prescribed Paxil and Wellbutrin, which I know I am now sadly dependent on, after research, and somewhat in the same boat, again.
It was about 3 months of starting the Paxil/Wellbutrin, I think, that I finally became interested in things again, and a few months more to be able to look for work again etc... I now want to stop the Paxil and Wellbutrin, but I am afraid of the emotional horrors again. I know my situation is unique to me, but it could be one example of a worst case scenario? I hope to find a way, to begin a taper, (from Paxil and WB) but it seems impossible without mental discomfort, so I may just ride it out and remain on them, so I can live my life. It is just knowing that my body and mind are now dependent on them. CHAINS. I know it, due to being out for a day or so, and the zaps and anxiety started. I got scared, and ordered a refill. I failed to truly understand the meds, so I am again, the fool, in my mind. But they have stabilized me. My mistake for trusting doctors, and my ignorance of truly NOT looking at the Meds, in terms of dependency of the meds. I honestly do not remember being told dependency is possible, with Paxil or WB. I may have been warned about them, but not how a person should be. Meds are powerful with physical dependencies in each, I feel, or I may have a strange disorder to any medication, that makes me dependent on them. Could be simply the morning ritual of taking them for a few years, and looking at any discomfort as WD's? I do not know, and my mind is tired of trying to figure it out. Just want peace, so I may just have to resign myself to staying put. Good luck my friend. Hang in there.