I'm taking control of my life

Ive decided to catch a bus to Portland Oregon. I will have around 400 dollars cash maybe the same on a credit card. I don't know a soul in that whole part of the country. But I talked to the methadone clinic out there today and after the first month I should be able to get on state insurance and end up with free methadone. They also have a good social safety net from what I understand. I'm really excited and I am really scared. I am lucky that my grandma would get me a ticket back her if it all goes to hell.

I've been eating a shitload of benzos recently but I'm going to start smoking pot again since it doesn't matter anymore what theses backward ass thinking folks in alabama have to say. My grandma is the only family who knows about my plan. Im going to tell my mom about this two before I leave so she doesn't have time to sabatoge my plan. I'm a 27 year old man in an extremely co-dependent relationship with mY mother. But not anymore I'm going to sink or swim. My adult life starts today.


Watch out Portland.


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I really do wish you the best my friend! Please keep us posted on how you do, whether you make the trip, getting settled, the whole lot! Compared to the clinics in your home state I have a feeling you'll like the Portland clinics a lot, that helps me put it in perspective. It is such a beautiful, albeit wet, city!

 

I lived in Portland for several years. It's one of the few cities that I actually liked. The landscape is beautiful. People are more educated than elsewhere in the US, but it tends to be expensive. The summers are not very hot and the winters never get cold enough to freeze. You don't have to watch for cockroaches everywhere you step and there are no moths that eat your clothes. Also, the food sucks compared to food in Bham. I spent my first month there in a boarding house before I figured out where I wanted to live.

I recommend getting a bicycle, and if you do, buy it in Alabama and put it in a box and take it with you on the Greyhound bus. What you can buy for 10$ in Bham will cost 150$ in Portland.

I think you will like it there. Good luck to you, and good luck getting settled there.

 

CJ, I'm going to be in Portland soon! PM me your details if you have any. I'll send my phone #.

 

I really do wish you the best my friend! Please keep us posted on how you do, whether you make the trip, getting settled, the whole lot! Compared to the clinics in your home state I have a feeling you'll like the Portland clinics a lot, that helps me put it in perspective. It is such a beautiful, albeit wet, city!

I second that goodwish and will Socko, know the feeling of despair well. Keep writing though, good 'therapy' - whether bitter, angry, introspective... anything! Then one day edit up all the bits, thoughts, rants, whatever, and you'll find a book.

 

Ive decided to wait until I can save a couple grand before leaving. 4 months is my target

 

Man, you have me so pumped and excited for you -- this is a good direction!

 

Good luck, and stay safe.