just positing to remind myself that I am STILL sober and approaching the 4 or 5 month mark - man, its been so good that I lost track.
things truly have been on the up and up; between getting clean, the move, car and work, I couldnt ask for more right now. the sad part is I am somewhat scared things are going too well and it will all be a disappointment soon enough but fuck that, I am happy and its because I am NOT ON DRUGS!
even made the drop down to 8MG bupe and feeling better than when I was at the 16 and 12 mark! I made the drop because my dick was not working to its high potential at the 16 or 12MG mark, so decided to drop to 8MG and it's been ROCKING since, ha. I feel like I am 16 again and watching porn more than once a day; the GF will love this "new" dick of mine, ha.
so yea, down to 8MG bupe, 1600MG GABA and only taking Seroquel once or twice a week to help sleep; my sleep schedule has gotten pretty good since making the job change and the bupe change.
so yes, things seem to be going well. I live in Boston and was down the Square today and had a few people run up to me an offer me dope and benzos and just brushed them off and went and got a fruit smoothie at Dunkin Donuts! BOOM, its that easy! plus, buying from randoms off the street was never my thing anyway; I dont trust people enough to buy from a random; I also dont know what I am getting and at this point last thing I need is to slip and end up dropping dead.
but yea, just wanted to check in w/ the rest of the board and let you guys know I am somehow, someway, still fucking sober and enjoying my life for the first time in a long ass time!
things truly have been on the up and up; between getting clean, the move, car and work, I couldnt ask for more right now. the sad part is I am somewhat scared things are going too well and it will all be a disappointment soon enough but fuck that, I am happy and its because I am NOT ON DRUGS!
even made the drop down to 8MG bupe and feeling better than when I was at the 16 and 12 mark! I made the drop because my dick was not working to its high potential at the 16 or 12MG mark, so decided to drop to 8MG and it's been ROCKING since, ha. I feel like I am 16 again and watching porn more than once a day; the GF will love this "new" dick of mine, ha.
so yea, down to 8MG bupe, 1600MG GABA and only taking Seroquel once or twice a week to help sleep; my sleep schedule has gotten pretty good since making the job change and the bupe change.
so yes, things seem to be going well. I live in Boston and was down the Square today and had a few people run up to me an offer me dope and benzos and just brushed them off and went and got a fruit smoothie at Dunkin Donuts! BOOM, its that easy! plus, buying from randoms off the street was never my thing anyway; I dont trust people enough to buy from a random; I also dont know what I am getting and at this point last thing I need is to slip and end up dropping dead.
but yea, just wanted to check in w/ the rest of the board and let you guys know I am somehow, someway, still fucking sober and enjoying my life for the first time in a long ass time!