i'm so depressed

i just listened to welcome home sanitarium cause i like dark shit being depressed makes me feel alive i hate happy but i don't know how long i keep this up
 
i'll give it to you that my diet is not great for me in any way but my depression is caused by a multitude of things so much i couldn't even count

A healthy change in your diet would be a start. Sure, its not the root cause of your unhappiness, but a diet change is a great first step in turning things around.
You should spend more time outside doing things under the sun rather than sitting in bed all day.
Have you considered a drug free lifestyle??
It's so unfortunate that you feel this way, but if you put in the effort and make big changes to your lifestyle, I think you will see an improvement.
 
i just listened to welcome home sanitarium cause i like dark shit being depressed makes me feel alive i hate happy but i don't know how long i keep this up

that's what i've been thinking lately. i love the dark shit too. go read some mr crowley and cheer yourself up. some of us are just meant for the dark side of life and wouldn't have it any other way. it's empowering and liberating to finally figure out that you don't want to be happy and live a magical fairy tale life. I want to live in the darkness, prosper in the misery and live out a fucked up life.
 
Right, even pain is life. I totally agree. Even in the most painful times I love life! Listen to NIN and cut my toes and fingers while playing with my ball sack. So yeah I get you too.
 
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