I'm new here and need encouragement

[Jmartinez92]

Hello I'm new here my name is Jose and lately I have been very depressed I do have a history of depression and lately it seems like I can't get out of it I'm tired of putting on a front like everything is OK and I'm happy I'm dieing inside and I don't wanna kill myself I have came very close but never could go all the way and lately just been feeling down worthless just wanted to dissapeer I'm tired of the pain and want out but cannot get out by means of sucided and I am very afraid that I will get to that point and I don't want to yes I am seeking councleing and talking to a therapist but still feel down don't know what to do and dont know how to talk about it

 

[Stanbot009]

Hi. Welcome to bluelight.. I know I get that way often, and each time it's harder to pull myself out of the ditch I fell into.
Sometimes having just someone that doesn't HAVE to listen to me, actually listen to me, really helps.
People here are friendly and nice, it seems. (I'm still new).
Hit me up sometime if you just need someone to talk to.

 

[BA2016]

Hello..I can completely relate to how you feel and it's been like this for a while now as well...hit me up if you'd like to chat.

 

[Thomas1]

Hi, welcome here

 

[Tranced]

Ello, just saw this which might be of help.

How To Repair Your Body, Mind, Soul - A Guide