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Exhausted Im kinda done with everything

nznity said:
Well, generally I spend my day chatting with friends, bit of discord, all day watch stuff on YouTube(I don't watch TV, I learn about news online) and I.play a lot of archero( a really cool mobile game thwt you only need one hand to play). I got a laptop for Xmas(brand new hp) but sadly I can't use it yet till I fix my right arm. My brother would lend me his play station 4 if I could use both hands but currently mhmm all I do is pretty much all that stuff I wrote up there lols.
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That's good. Gotta stay occupied. So you have access to a PlayStation 4. I was gonna see if I could maybe get you a refurbished system because my friend gets them and brings them back from the dead. Hope your feeling OK today.
 
When i quit dope this time i bought a guitar and taught myself(youtube has videos for everything). I get real depressed when sober and it helps to exercise and keep my mind busy. Exercise helps more then i expected and it's nice getting outside in nature
 
Jennn said:
When i quit dope this time i bought a guitar and taught myself(youtube has videos for everything). I get real depressed when sober and it helps to exercise and keep my mind busy. Exercise helps more then i expected and it's nice getting outside in nature
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Yeah but in this case I'm very weak, I can barely move, I'm confined to my bed and I don't get much sun. It's all a mental fuck up.
 
somnilicious said:
That's good. Gotta stay occupied. So you have access to a PlayStation 4. I was gonna see if I could maybe get you a refurbished system because my friend gets them and brings them back from the dead. Hope your feeling OK today.
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I got ir, same as a laptop but at the moment I csnt use both hands so i only can use my phone for now.
 
nznity said:
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Gea from the top of the head down.. lol.. keep the mind occupied... thrn you wont have those memory thoughts.. trust i know the feeling 😹😹😹 its all fun an games till someone dies... not good for sure.. but you should get into crypto. Now is literally the time.. bitcoin and other alts at an all time low.. its the time when millionares are mad my friend. Not shilling anything just saying..
 
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Jennn said:
When i quit dope this time i bought a guitar and taught myself(youtube has videos for everything). I get real depressed when sober and it helps to exercise and keep my mind busy. Exercise helps more then i expected and it's nice getting outside in nature
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That depression will fade. Depends how much junk you had in you and how long you were on that run for well depend on how long it take to be normal and having that brain make the right chemicals for ya!! Trust it will happen, stay clean and soo you will be 100% 💗💗💗 nice job and congrats my clean sista 💖💖💖
 
Uknowit4now said:
Gea from the top of the head down.. lol.. keep the mind occupied... thrn you wont have those memory thoughts.. trust i know the feeling 😹😹😹 its all fun an games till someone dies... not good for sure.. but you should get into crypto. Now is literally the time.. bitcoin and other alts at an all time low.. its the time when millionares are mad my friend. Not shilling anything just saying..
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I KNOW BUT I GOT NO MONEY ATM, I KEEP TELLING MY FRIENDS TO INVEST ON IT FKING RETARDS RHINK ITS A PONZI SCHEME BUT THSTS CAUSE THEY DONY KNOW HOW CRYPTO WORKS. GRRR pisses me off but I can make money from various ways, I just needa be healthy again....one step at a time.
 
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Man, that little description gave me a brief high on the power of suggestion.
I swear I felt my heart racing.

Thanks for the free lil buzz 😘

PS-- I guess you'd call it drug porn?
Anyway, you're pretty good at it. 😉
 
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jasperkent said:
Man, that little description gave me a brief high on the power of suggestion.
I swear I felt my heart racing.

Thanks for the free lil buzz 😘
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I swear my hand started sweating writing that too...the ones who know, that shit ain't joke. It's one of the most euphoric things a human neing can do but it comes with a price to pay way too high for what it's worth. I wouldn't recommend it, "I tried it so other ppl don't have to" 🤣😂😂😂
Cheers ma man 💙💯
 
nznity said:
I swear my hand started sweating writing that too...the ones who know, that shit ain't joke. It's one of the most euphoric things a human neing can do but it comes with a price to pay way too high for what it's worth. I wouldn't recommend it, "I tried it so other ppl don't have to" 🤣😂😂😂
Cheers ma man 💙💯
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No shit man!

I always advise against it....but I'm glad to have experienced it. Never again, but goddamn it was amazing for a little while!
 
jasperkent said:
No shit man!

I always advise against it....but I'm glad to have experienced it. Never again, but goddamn it was amazing for a little while!
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So fucking true, altho I kinda overdid it...should've quit after the 2nd year but I kept going for 6 years. Now I have some circulatory problems and I can't imagine how my heart is. Although, from my last health check up. I'm pretty healthy from all the abuse I've put my body through lols.
 
My IV cocaine use only lasted about a year, which is good. I was a wreck. Can't imagine going longer.

And yeah, at the time (1986-7) I was mostly getting very good shit. I knew a couple high-level dealers and got good deals.
 
nznity said:
I think you guys are misinterpreting my words, it's ok though because I'm not saying things straight up. Drugs aren't really a problem right now. I'm going through an existencial crisis and in fact drugs are keeping me sane rn tbh. I'm battling my demons the best I can as of now, thanks 4 the kind words though. Yeah, I've beaten drugs once and I'll do it again if time gives me the chance.
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I’m going through the same thing rn. Only problem is I’m 4 hours from “home”. Tryna take care of my grandmother. So I’m sick as Fuck, going insane, and trying to keep it together for her
 
Inextesy said:
I’m going through the same thing rn. Only problem is I’m 4 hours from “home”. Tryna take care of my grandmother. So I’m sick as Fuck, going insane, and trying to keep it together for her
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Always have at least some gabapentin on hand. It helps a bit, at least to not shit yourself
 
RC-Lover123 said:
I recently bought some weed for the first time in a decade or so, in order to find some relieve from that epic poppy pod withdrawal. That stuff has gotten so strong nowadays, a small joint ripped my head off. I had to gulp down half a bottle of Gin immediately to shut down the paranoid thought trains the weed caused in my tortured brain. The combined effect of the weed and the Gin were somewhat enjoyable, though but I will not do it again.
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Try small doses of a tincture. It will help immensely with withdrawal symptoms (confine this with small Kratom doses) and you won’t get the paranoia. Weed is strong nowadays you need to ease in. Good luck comrade
 
Inextesy said:
I’m going through the same thing rn. Only problem is I’m 4 hours from “home”. Tryna take care of my grandmother. So I’m sick as Fuck, going insane, and trying to keep it together for her
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Grab a tincture and micro dose it. I feel your pain I’ve been there hold tight
 
I feel the same I realize I’m not compatible with life and my existence should be terminated
Only in my dreams found some kind of relief and waking up to reality it’s just anguishing could sleep for days but forcing adds more pain
 
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