i'm hypomanic lol

[Eyes On the Roll]

its about time, been depressed for way too long. Ive probably been hypomanic for a month but havent realized it, cause i had kicked my scripted adderall habit and was having withdrawals for like 3 weeks, maybe the amp use triggered it. But I've been sober for almost 2 weeks except for a few drinks, and last night i stayed up all night, didnt even feel tired, then went straight to class at 8:00am and had a test at 11:00 - which was 72 questions and i was in such a frenzy that I completed it in like 15 mins.. and I'm sure I got an A.

Since class I bought a new desk and a new laptop, and have been running around town kinda aimlessly lol, and putting this desk together. lifes good
I'm just in this zone where I don't give a fuck about anything or anyone else, except my self and my goals, focused and just really energetic and daring

 

[paranoid android]

Just because you think your making all the right decisions and that you can do nothing wrong while hypomanic doesent mean that it's true. That it from one who's been there often enough. You may want to leave the bank cards at home too

Have you ever been diagnosed officially? If so do you actually take meds to control your mood swings?

 

[Eyes On the Roll]

yea i was diagnosed in 10th grade, took a lot of meds that year and went cold turkey on all of them, its been almost 5 years since then and i havent been medicated for it since, and it is hard to focus while depressed and hypomanic, so In my neew town i got a script for adderall for school.. havent told this doc im bipolar but ive dropped hints, he seems like a pusher and gave me a high mg script without any questions, and i stopped doing em for my own good a month ago

 

[Eyes On the Roll]

so basically im still awake and energetic and exitable, havent done any drugs however i smoked a lot of weed hoping to fall asleep but i only fell asleep for 20 mins lol.. and it doesnt look like ill sleep tonight either

 

[PureLife]

I don't mean to come off the wrong way. But you already have a very active Bipolar disorder. You don't want to take medication, I'm guessing because you think your better off without them. Yet you don't have a problem taking amphetamine? I understand that you stopped taking the amphetamine but that mixture of amphetamine and Bipolar just sound like a manic episode in the making. If you already have a psychiatrist, and are lucky enough to have health insurance I advise you tell him about your condition. I've known lots of people with both types of Bipolar who were on Adderall, but they were also on meds to help them threw their disorder. They needed to learn to take care of themselves. Through therapy and as little medication as possible they found that care.

 

[Eyes On the Roll]

yea i understand that the adderall was a bad idea, but i had my own prescription to a lot, and substance abuse is kinda in my nature, and i saw what the adderall was doing to me and it was very hard to stray away from it.. especially since i could get it anytime and i enjoyed it a lot, it was actually my new years resolution to kick it, and that I did, and it's probably the best form of self control ive ever displayed towards a substance