Im at odds on what to do with planning for the future. I never got passing grades in school and have a lengthy criminal record including a felony. In 06' 07' I attended junior college and without trying recieved a 2.85, I feel that I can get perfect or very good grades if I try again. But my father likes to pyhsically abuse me. Six days before school began, he beat me with a baseball bat while the lights were off and I was under the covers. He had been enmesting my rectum, abberating it with a somatic charge. I explained to him numerous times that " I can describe what your're doing, but don't know how to enmest someone. Can you instruct me please, or stop doing it?" And he would try to hypnotize me while including the emotion for me to swear, break property, threaten or assualt someone. He continued to enmest my rectum and throwing automoticities; I told him that automoticities are limited in that being a hallucination to the 2 dimension and to stop trying. He continued for hours and I beat the walls of my room in response, finally he came in my room and beat me with a bat. The new york state police showed up; I told them verbatim what you've read. I returned from the hospital and started college. I was ostrocized in a nearby community in the late 90's. At school ma' drugs (adderall) were being abberated by people in the area; I'm developing serious headaches cause my present time social conditioning is lack. Conditioning and climate are definite factors contributing to my activities throuout the day. I tell my father that my head is hurting and in describing the pain I used the metaphor "I'd like to shoot my head with a shotgun" ( I mean, the doctors use the "on the scale of 1 to 10" in recording pain) and he tells the school administrators that I threatened to buy a gun kill my self and others. I used my time in front of the administrators first to discredit my dad. He's a violent ex marine and a felon, he bit the tip of my moms syrian doctor boyfriends finger off in a fight, he had unregistered handguns taken from him, he has beaten everyone in my family. Then I questioned their protocol for procedure on handling my situation. They run DED DED-EXS; dirty electronic incidents. And the situation now is I can't go back to their school unless I see a psyche.
-I have a BMW 1990 325i if I want it. I buy it back for $1700.
-I have $6264 cash yearly. I get off probation in 32months.
-I have a Class A Tractor Trailer Drivers License.
-I have good rapport with my psyche who will sign my to-go to school papers; I'm just disorganized on developing abberation for others. ( fear has developed through biological essentials; it keeps you safe. Emotion and self conciousness will counter you're movement in the pyhsical universe) And just like Obama is doing with blacks: blacks encountering something and trying to do a rundown to include not getting feelings hurt, I with my Sct training am constantly getting advanced on by people without SCT, DIA, LRH training and being "forced" to handle fascimiles or scenarios, fuckin retarded scenarios too, innapropriate shit, and I'm not really a hard person so I end up busting out laughing. As I'm writing this my fathers valence has and is id'ing the school as a central, a point, a universe etc. I understand cause effect to be cause-effect-distance, and in turn going distance-effect-cause through communication.
I'm monitoring my progress at the gym so I don't end up overtraining, and I pick up trash from the street cause' I don't contribute to the state as I'm on SSI. And I havent stolen anything in a long time. I have SCT training to counter any thoughts that come up and am able to expand on it most days, some with a review.
