Because my goal is not total abstinence. At least not for now. Basically, I no longer want to be an opiate addict. It's been 5 years or so now. Blues, illicitly and expensively. When I've run out of pills, I use kratom. Of course I should quit, really, it's simply common sense.
And I am a polydrug addict / misuser. Nightly alcohol, which I'd like to change. If I don't have my DOC, I take anything.
I feel like the key to me being good is MJ. I recently discovered tinctures. When I have cannabis in me, the cravings for opiates and booze subsides.
I haven't had an opiate pill in 6 days. I'm kinda achy, been using kratom and adderall by day (almost out of ads), and xanax by night (have a handful of bars left.)
I know I'll be able to re-up on blues this week, maybe as early as tomorrow. But I don't want to. I just got through a very shitty withdrawal. I need to just say no and get started on the rewiring.
I am 42 and a father of two. I can NOT come clean to my wife again. We been down this road. We'd be done. WTF is wrong with me?
And I am a polydrug addict / misuser. Nightly alcohol, which I'd like to change. If I don't have my DOC, I take anything.
I feel like the key to me being good is MJ. I recently discovered tinctures. When I have cannabis in me, the cravings for opiates and booze subsides.
I haven't had an opiate pill in 6 days. I'm kinda achy, been using kratom and adderall by day (almost out of ads), and xanax by night (have a handful of bars left.)
I know I'll be able to re-up on blues this week, maybe as early as tomorrow. But I don't want to. I just got through a very shitty withdrawal. I need to just say no and get started on the rewiring.
I am 42 and a father of two. I can NOT come clean to my wife again. We been down this road. We'd be done. WTF is wrong with me?