Benzos I'm gunna feel such a fool writing this but HELP what the fuck do I do now?!

[wooger]

This Etizolam has serious addiction potential. I have to really watch myself with usage. As mentioned above, the best course of action is go to a medical professional, and they should give you a long half life Benzo (usually Valium or Librium) to taper down.

Wooger, do you live in the UK? There are lots of vendors here selling Etizolam DIRT cheap. It is not scheduled here, but probably will soon with the number of people having problems with it.

Ive got about 200 pills right now, and will try and ration them well into next year. Have ordered some Kava and Buspar to use as an alternative.

Couldnt agree more, to be honest from the first day I tried it I just did it the next day, then the next day, and carried on like that til I realised 'shit, I'm in trouble here!'

So yes, please be careful with them, I would really hate to see you end up in my situation cus it really does fucking suck!

I know specific vendor talk is not allowed but I havent found many cheap places selling in the UK... I order mine from overseas and it is like a third of the price of the UK based vendors!

but anyways, yeah I will talk to my doctor at my tuesday appointment and see what he says... hopefully he is more helpful than that other guy .

sorry if my posts are all negative and moany, this just sucks, but I should shut up about it really cus I'm an idiot who bought it on themself!

 

[aveoturbo]

Do you have access to another hospital within a reasonable driving range? That would be my next move. This stuff is really bringing down your quality of life.
Otherwise, I guess just try and make the meds last until your doctor visit. Just take a minimal dose when your anxiety starts to get high. It will be a challenge but you have to discipline yourself. I have been addicted to medications before but my doctor who prescribed them for me knew about it because I told him. That opened a whole new level of trust with him and also helps me get whatever meds I feel I need. He then helped me taper off of the medication I was addicted to and we came up with a new resolution.
Keep your chin up man. If you really want to end the cycle and havoc then I have faith you will be able to do it.

EDIT: The Dark Side sub-forum could really be your friend atm.

 

[muvolution]

wow, man. that is fucking shitty. Do you have a regular doctor? You could try a psychiatrist, but I don't know where you are, as they tend to be cash only in much of the US. If you have a major university nearby, you could inquire if they have a low-cost clinic as many do. Or try an Urgent Care... before going anywhere you might want to try and get a nurse on the line or something and just lay it out for them.

 

[BIGsherm7272]

Well you shouldnt have told them the reason was "because of a medication you are taking", that makes you sound like a drug seeker. You should have just told them you are in benzo withdrawal and are scared of having a seizure. Heck, you could have even lied a little and said that you think you had a seizure and that is the reason you are seeking help......sometimes it takes a little story fabrication to truly get help in the ER, and that is based on my experience.

 

[muvolution]

the above post is OK, but as an aside, we don't give advice on how to score drugs from doctors.

In this case, it is a very serious matter, so you shouldn't have trouble, but a little creativity may be in order.

 

[wooger]

hmm not really... the next closest hospital is like an hours drive away... but I am good for tonight... like I said I managed to get some etizolam

I just know I am gunna be facing the same fucking shit tomorrow tho and I hope to god I get to sleep tonight...

another thing that pissed me off about this doc at the hospital... when he said he didnt know shit about etizolam I told him it was equivalent to around 50mg of diazepam a day... he was just like 'wow... thats a very high dose' and thats all he said....

The appointment I have on a tuesday is actually with a psychiatrist... and he knows of my situation and his offer is for 15mg of diazepam a day and quit the etizolam completely... but I read someone in some guide for doctors 'if they are obtaining benzodiazepines illicitly... start with a much lower dose than claimed' so I dunno whether that is his game or not?

The lady who is accompanying me on this visit has apparently checked with a drug agency who deal primarily with opiate users and replacement therapy (so they dont know fuck all about benzos) but they have assured her that dropping off at my dosage nothing bad would happen but I might be a bit 'uncomfortable' people can have seizures quitting from 50mg diazepam equivalent cold turkey right?

 

[BIGsherm7272]

the above post is OK, but as an aside, we don't give advice on how to score drugs from doctors.

In this case, it is a very serious matter, so you shouldn't have trouble, but a little creativity may be in order.

The objective of my post was not to help the OP score drugs from the ER, but to help him achieve adequate care so he does not actually have a seizure or other serious complications from benzo withdrawal. It is a life-threatening emergency and should be treated as so.

 

[cj]

God that is so fucked up keep some documentation from that doctors visit that way if you have a seizure you can tag his ass for malpractice.

 

[Pegasus]

I wouldn't go in with the attitude that you were abusing an illegal class of drugs. Feign that you were ignorant of the addictiveness because of the legality, and that you didn't know what you were getting yourself into. Doctors are usually hesitant to help people who they view to be abusing drugs; your best bet IMO is to have the attitude that you weren't abusing etizolam.

 

[wooger]

I didnt go in with the attitude I was abusing them at all, I have explained to the 'healthcare professionals' about this that I have had problems with anxiety for a long time (which is actually true, and is well documented in my medical records) and that I saw it was for anxiety and available online and now I am having trouble stopping...

The psychiatrist guy was MUCH more understanding of this attitude and he gave me a lecture about how purchasing drugs online could be dangerous because you dont know the quality of them etc and that benzos are only for short term use... still he is still only offering me 15mg of diazepam a day to replace what I am currently on...

The guy at the hospital, I explained to him about anxiety and that it was really helping me out at first etc etc and I'm finding it really hard to stop and my symptoms etc... and his attitude was basically 'get the fuck out my office, you dirty druggie'

*sigh*

 

[wooger]

Argh

Just checking in again.... this is gunna be my second night without sleep by the looks of things.... I have some herbal sleeping pills with valerian passion flower and hops in them.... do yuo think these will be any good to help me nod off??

sorry this thread is just me moaning but holy fuck, Im sure many of you have probably experienced this and know but its FUCKING AWFUL.

 

[aveoturbo]

I take it your deal fell through? (Dont actually answer that).

The valerian herb pill wont hurt you. A melatonin supplement would probably be the best thing for you but I imagine that even if you did fall asleep, it wouldn't be very good rest especially if you are having physical w/ds. I know this first hand as well. As does my wife whom I apparently punched in my sleep

I bid you good luck sir and be careful, stay safe.

**Most people on here would rather you ask about something rather than doing something silly because you felt like you would be "moaning." Just saying**

 

[wooger]

thanks for all the advice, ill pop a couple of those herbal thingys and see how I do... I must get at least some rest... physically I feel exhausted..kinda...

thanks again for ur help and everything in my hour of need! hope you have a better night than I do lol .

 

[Oxide]

That's fucked up. When I was WDing from xanax, I couldn't hang and went to the ER to see what could be done. The doctor that was working at the time took pity on me. Cut me a script for 30 klonopin, and I was able to taper somewhat. It was an awful experience though, sorry to hear you're in the same spot, but you shoulda played dumber. ;p

You should look into kava-kava, it might help a little more than valerian root.

 

[SweatLip]

Sorry to hear you're in bad shape bud, I went through my script of 3 - 1mg xanax in a little more then 2 weeks and am out til my next appointment so I am right there with you. Usually being without benzo's for a few days doesn't bother me at all, but 2 days after I ran out, I was having severe twitches that literally make my whole body violently jump, so much so that I was about to goto the ER for fear of having a seizure. Luckily my wife has a seldom used script of 10 - .5mg xanax and friend happened to come by out of the blue with 10 - 2mg ativan and I've been able to string them out enough were the WD isn't bad enough to cause the violent twitches.

That being said, the best advise I can give you is if you do happen to get your hands on anymore, only use enough to calm the WD down to a more manageable level. I know it's hard to do, but just think to yourself how shitty WD is and that you give yourself the choice to endure it, or use sparingly to make life more comfortable for the time being. Also try taking some benadryl with the meletonin, as it will give an extra kick to any sleep you will get. It may sound a bit cliche, but try sleeping through it as much of it as you can ( easier said then done ) and listen to your favorite type of music when you are awake, anything to help distract your mind will help.

Hang tough m8 - this too shall pass.

 

[Doug2113]

That sucks man. I know nothing of benzo WD so I'm not going to begin to try to give you advice. If you don't mind me asking, I am curious though as to what exactly got you labeled as a drug seeker from your surgery? That just kind of confuses me.

 

[ytc]

Hey, this is my first time posting here, although i have looked at it alot for advice and information. Anyway, i couldn't help but post some emergency advice that may prevent an uncomfortable withdrawal. cimetidin-e will significantly increase the half-life of diazepam by blocking the liver enzymes that metabolize it. It would make for a much smoother transition and taper if used correctly. I am not an expert on it but maybe someone else that knows more knows how to dose the cimetidine (in the stores it is called Tagamet) can help. Any way, i've been through such serious benzo withdrawal that i had three gran mal seizures two weeks after stopping, so i feel for you. Way longer and worse than heroin withdraw-al. Good luck, hope i was able to help.

 

[ytc]

i meant cimetidine i accidently got the space in there. same with withdrawal.

 

[Schrei]

Thats the problem with some doctors. They think you are only trying to score meds, and sometimes people are, but other really are wanting the help, then they dont give you the time a day and treat you like you are wasting their time.
Hospitals are suppose to help not put you in danger.

 

[wooger]

^^ thats exactly what it was like, you could tell by his expression as I was explaining the situation he was like 'yeah, okay, whatever, get the fuck out of here'.

and ermm to the person who asked about the drug seeker label... I am not even too sure! I can only assume it was a combination of me telling my doctor about my drinking problem and the fact I went to the hospital before having a panic attack thinking I was dying lol. I spoke to my own doctor about it and explained and said the hospital guy gave me diazepam and he was like 'yes, I heard about that...' with like a wry smile on his face (this was several months ago) and yeah when I went the other day they were like 'your surgery has said not to issue you with any medication' or something.

Fuck them. Seriously, there was a show on here called 'can you trust your doctor?' I think the answer to that question for me is 'no, hes a fucking cocksucker'.

Anyways, I have plenty of benzos now, so no longer a concern that I'ma run out or something. Like I said before tho, they are really short acting ones and its making it really tough, I have an appointment tomorrow with a psychiatrist guy tho who seems much more reasonable than my dickhead GP. Hopefully he will switch me over to a reasonable dosage of diazepam to do this with

thanks for all the advice tho, really it means alot, and its good to get this off my chest cus its kinda driving me insane .