BourbonMac
Bluelighter
I'm supposed to get my wisdom teeth out on Thursday. Last night while stoned, I started to be a bit fearful, but knew I was going to go with it. I mean I had this all planned. I got kratom capsules so I wouldn't have to do whatever opiates they try to give me. I prefer kratom.
Then I just fucking HAD to go on reddit, read about dry socket, how it's worse than childbirth, 20% chance with impacted teeth especially on the bottom and I'm just like, fuck. Should I only get the top 2 out? It's those that likely cause the headaches (though the surgeon thinks my headaches are generally not related). They've improved vastly on their own at any rate.
So I was going to call Monday and say I'm not ready, I'm too anxious right now. Fucking internet man, I mean, the anxiety was brewing, but I did this to myself by choosing to look on Reddit, a place where obviously even if 1% of people will have a problem you'll see hundreds or thousands of people talking about it. The world is a large place.
This was all to work out perfectly. I get Thursday through Sunday off, was gonna take Monday off and not be back until that Friday because for whatever reason I'm not scheduled the Thursday after my surgery. Now I have to explain at work some elaborate excuse because mental health discussion in a retail job will just make you look bad. None of my managers give a shit about that. It's why they let some stalker kid work here for months creeping on several female employees who ended up leaving, he even showed up at one of their houses, stole $50 worth of drinks, just kept breaking rule after rule. He was fired yesterday, finally, but behaviorally he's someone who would likely come try to shoot the place up. Imagine the irony, I choose not to get them out and I get shot to death. That's sadly an actual realistic thing and every one of us are expecting him because he does own a gun and had talked about killing animals, not hunting, killing them because he felt like it. And those death stares... I'm getting off topic though.
I feel like I need another month or two to make this decision. Like fuck me, I don't know where the anxiety came from. Just last night I was vibing to some Santana, having a good session of kava with extreme euphoria, and now I'm a 29 year old man who's too afraid to get some teeth pulled. I do have anxiety and C-PTSD but still... even if I delay it I'll be afraid, it's just it came so fast. I saw the guy 2 weeks ago and it was scheduled this fast. Antibiotics fuck me up and are usually prescribed after this. Amoxicillin I'm allergic to, Clyndamycin RUINS my stomach, and these two are the most commonly used. Bactrim is about the only one that doesn't. It took me 6 months last year to get my stomach back to normal after a 5 day course of Zithromax. 6 months. And actually, probably closer to 8 because I couldn't eat at work without awful gut pain. Now I can. I went from 6"1 115 pounds last winter to 6"1 nearly 150 pounds.
Anyone have input? Yes I know I'm a pussy. I've faced so many more tough things in my life than this. In fact, I almost WANTED to get dry socket just to know how bad it truly is. It's not likely, I have 40mg edible gummies and I can vape through my nose. Fuuuck, I'm just so anxious. At least if I got them out in a month or two, I'd be in better spirits given Spring is coming and well, I'd have more time to probably see a better therapist, my old one and I didn't get along after awhile. I'm very particular about them which is why it's difficult to find good ones. The good ones don't take my insurance or cost $100 a session. Yeah, no thanks.
Anyway, Idk what input others might have. Just tell them I have anxiety disorders and I don't feel ready? I can tell work whatever, something came up and pick my shifts back up. I got a $2 raise so I'd want that anyway.
Then I just fucking HAD to go on reddit, read about dry socket, how it's worse than childbirth, 20% chance with impacted teeth especially on the bottom and I'm just like, fuck. Should I only get the top 2 out? It's those that likely cause the headaches (though the surgeon thinks my headaches are generally not related). They've improved vastly on their own at any rate.
So I was going to call Monday and say I'm not ready, I'm too anxious right now. Fucking internet man, I mean, the anxiety was brewing, but I did this to myself by choosing to look on Reddit, a place where obviously even if 1% of people will have a problem you'll see hundreds or thousands of people talking about it. The world is a large place.
This was all to work out perfectly. I get Thursday through Sunday off, was gonna take Monday off and not be back until that Friday because for whatever reason I'm not scheduled the Thursday after my surgery. Now I have to explain at work some elaborate excuse because mental health discussion in a retail job will just make you look bad. None of my managers give a shit about that. It's why they let some stalker kid work here for months creeping on several female employees who ended up leaving, he even showed up at one of their houses, stole $50 worth of drinks, just kept breaking rule after rule. He was fired yesterday, finally, but behaviorally he's someone who would likely come try to shoot the place up. Imagine the irony, I choose not to get them out and I get shot to death. That's sadly an actual realistic thing and every one of us are expecting him because he does own a gun and had talked about killing animals, not hunting, killing them because he felt like it. And those death stares... I'm getting off topic though.
I feel like I need another month or two to make this decision. Like fuck me, I don't know where the anxiety came from. Just last night I was vibing to some Santana, having a good session of kava with extreme euphoria, and now I'm a 29 year old man who's too afraid to get some teeth pulled. I do have anxiety and C-PTSD but still... even if I delay it I'll be afraid, it's just it came so fast. I saw the guy 2 weeks ago and it was scheduled this fast. Antibiotics fuck me up and are usually prescribed after this. Amoxicillin I'm allergic to, Clyndamycin RUINS my stomach, and these two are the most commonly used. Bactrim is about the only one that doesn't. It took me 6 months last year to get my stomach back to normal after a 5 day course of Zithromax. 6 months. And actually, probably closer to 8 because I couldn't eat at work without awful gut pain. Now I can. I went from 6"1 115 pounds last winter to 6"1 nearly 150 pounds.
Anyone have input? Yes I know I'm a pussy. I've faced so many more tough things in my life than this. In fact, I almost WANTED to get dry socket just to know how bad it truly is. It's not likely, I have 40mg edible gummies and I can vape through my nose. Fuuuck, I'm just so anxious. At least if I got them out in a month or two, I'd be in better spirits given Spring is coming and well, I'd have more time to probably see a better therapist, my old one and I didn't get along after awhile. I'm very particular about them which is why it's difficult to find good ones. The good ones don't take my insurance or cost $100 a session. Yeah, no thanks.
Anyway, Idk what input others might have. Just tell them I have anxiety disorders and I don't feel ready? I can tell work whatever, something came up and pick my shifts back up. I got a $2 raise so I'd want that anyway.
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