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fuckabout89 said:
What you fuck up?
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mainly it’s bladder damage from ketamine.

but i think i have a broader systemic issue because something ALWAYS hurts and it will switch on me when one thing stops hurting.

my 20s were a totally nightmare because i had a herniated disc and back surgery and problems. now that thats fixed my bladder is fucked. other body parts starting to hurt too.

i’ve been in pain for 25 years straight and it’s not one single thing or the severity of it anymore; it’s the decades of hell compounded upon itself and the knowledge that as i age it will just get worse most likely.

and eve if it doesn’t i have a very sort of nihilistic / antinatalist / efilist worldview and that alone makes dying seem pretty neutral….add the decades of chronic pain and it tips it towards preference to die
 
Dr. John Thackery said:
mainly it’s bladder damage from ketamine.

but i think i have a broader systemic issue because something ALWAYS hurts and it will switch on me when one thing stops hurting.

my 20s were a totally nightmare because i had a herniated disc and back surgery and problems. now that thats fixed my bladder is fucked. other body parts starting to hurt too.

i’ve been in pain for 25 years straight and it’s not one single thing or the severity of it anymore; it’s the decades of hell compounded upon itself and the knowledge that as i age it will just get worse most likely.

and eve if it doesn’t i have a very sort of nihilistic / antinatalist / efilist worldview and that alone makes dying seem pretty neutral….add the decades of chronic pain and it tips it towards preference to die
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Yeah that sucks man, back problems are awful...My fascia is fucked up in my pelvic region so I have awful shoulder and neck problems.
 
fuckabout89 said:
Yeah that sucks man, back problems are awful...My fascia is fucked up in my pelvic region so I have awful shoulder and neck problems.
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i don’t under how there aren’t just mass suicides among the aging population. like ppl actually think living like this (and some not even on drugs) is worthwhile?

or are just the majority of pll
trapped by relationships od ppl dependent on them like me with my wife and ppl with kids dependent on them?

i look around at some of the misery. like i live in the san francisco area and you can see mother fuckrs on the floor shitt themselves , maggots crawling out of open wounds and they are probably in extreme pain. why the fuck aren’t ppl killingthemselves?

i just propositioned my suicidial friend that we do it together so we don’t back out or so that’s its murder if one of us survives: that way we’ll both follow through.

my life isn’t even bad compared to so many horrible lives out there but it’s bad enough for me to think this shit and he astounded that the whole world keeps going despite some insane suffering like i just described above with the homeless
 
Dr. John Thackery said:
i don’t under how there aren’t just mass suicides among the aging population. like ppl actually think living like this (and some not even on drugs) is worthwhile?

or are just the majority of pll
trapped by relationships od ppl dependent on them like me with my wife and ppl with kids dependent on them?

i look around at some of the misery. like i live in the san francisco area and you can see mother fuckrs on the floor shitt themselves , maggots crawling out of open wounds and they are probably in extreme pain. why the fuck aren’t ppl killingthemselves?

i just propositioned my suicidial friend that we do it together so we don’t back out or so that’s its murder if one of us survives: that way we’ll both follow through.

my life isn’t even bad compared to so many horrible lives out there but it’s bad enough for me to think this shit and he astounded that the whole world keeps going despite some insane suffering like i just described above with the homeless
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Yeah its collective suicide on mass scale, Its like watching the Elite devour its citizens and the elite devour themselves. Were aboustly destroying ourselves as a species. Were not in good period of human history and I think its probably only gonna get much much worse. These times are gonna look ike the good times 20 years from now. Atleast thats my view of it my generation and before them are completely helpless.
 
fuckabout89 said:
Yeah its collective suicide on mass scale, Its like watching the Elite devour its citizens and the elite devour themselves. Were aboustly destroying ourselves as a species. Were not in good period of human history and I think its probably only gonna get much much worse. These times are gonna look ike the good times 20 years from now. Atleast thats my view of it my generation and before them are completely helpless.
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i just got done reading Sapiens by yuval harari and he argues that quality of human life was better before the agricultural revolution (so like nearly 100 K years ago?)

as soon as humans started farming life became miserable ….then wjrh the industrial revolution it made it even worse

he’s a renowned historian / philosopher. he made a very strong case for why this is true.
 
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