I'm all alone in this

[Amrcorbin]

Early recovery is hard - just stay focused and strong. It gets better in time. Please don't feel shameful - addiction is an illness. This isn't something you intentionally set out to do - and you are actively taking action to correct the issues. You perceptions will most likely be off while you withdrawal, and a little after the. Expect your emotions to be all over the place as well as heightened anxiety. This is normal and will pass. When you're feeling low just remember tht this is temporary.

Your husband is trying to process this as well. It will take time for him as well. I think it would benefit you both if he were to read up on addiction, especially if you have children. Addiction tends to run in family's and realistically, it may be something you as parents have to deal with.

Addiction is not a moral failing on anybody's part. Addiction is an illness, like cancer or diabetes. Some people get it, some don't. If you he cancer I doubt you would feel shame, and there is no need to with addiction. You have to be as positive as possible right now. Instead of feeling shame because your an addict, feel proud because you're an addict and are doing everything you can to get healthy instead of giving into the illness. You're taking the best course of action for you and your family - that is not shameful.

Thank you for being so supportive and kind..i can never repay you for you making me feel like I am somebody and worth fighting to be healthy..again Thank you

 

[Withdrawal_Slayer]

Just fyi, the reason we always feel so ashamed, helpless, pathetic, depressed throughout opiate withdrawal typically isn't because "feelings are coming to the surface" or because of actual shame, it's all about dopamine. Slaveoxone (Suboxone) and all opiates control the brain's ability to create dopamine when they're taken long term. You take away the opiate, you take away the dopamine, and you feel like complete and absolute hell. For me, the mental depression is 1,000 worse than any physical discomfort.

However, there are things you can do to help combat this. For example, here's my current regiment: Megadoses of Vitamin C (this is new for me this time), Bali/Maeng Dai/Super Indo kratom mix, large amounts of loperamide, 5HTP, tyrosine, Calcium-magnesium, Omega-3 fatty acids.

The best thing about all of these (except Kratom in certain states) is that they're over the counter and can relieve up to 95% of your mental and physical anguish. There are answers out there to help you! You don't have to suffer through this entirely.

 

[Amrcorbin]

Just fyi, the reason we always feel so ashamed, helpless, pathetic, depressed throughout opiate withdrawal typically isn't because "feelings are coming to the surface" or because of actual shame, it's all about dopamine. Slaveoxone (Suboxone) and all opiates control the brain's ability to create dopamine when they're taken long term. You take away the opiate, you take away the dopamine, and you feel like complete and absolute hell. For me, the mental depression is 1,000 worse than any physical discomfort.

However, there are things you can do to help combat this. For example, here's my current regiment: Megadoses of Vitamin C (this is new for me this time), Bali/Maeng Dai/Super Indo kratom mix, large amounts of loperamide, 5HTP, tyrosine, Calcium-magnesium, Omega-3 fatty acids.

The best thing about all of these (except Kratom in certain states) is that they're over the counter and can relieve up to 95% of your mental and physical anguish. There are answers out there to help you! You don't have to suffer through this entirely.

Thank you for the info and you are right about the dopamine