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I'm about to kill myself, seriously.

Glad that someone stepped up to help out. I wish you luck, BrokedownPalace. Congrats on getting clean.
 
Thanks man. I appreciate it. Another person who I went to hiigh school with is getting his own apartment in a few days and offeerd me a room there. He owns his own construction business so I can work with him to help earn my keep around there. I justneed somewhere for the next couple days, I guess if i have to go to the streets I do, but I have no money. Not one dollar to eat, or anything. Blah.
 
Damn, I'm seriously tearing up after reading this. Bojangles is baddass! I'm seeing the bright side to The Dark Side!
 
BrokedownPalace said:
Thanks man. I appreciate it. Another person who I went to hiigh school with is getting his own apartment in a few days and offeerd me a room there. He owns his own construction business so I can work with him to help earn my keep around there. I justneed somewhere for the next couple days, I guess if i have to go to the streets I do, but I have no money. Not one dollar to eat, or anything. Blah.
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Believe me, I'm right there with you, man. I'm completely broke until I can find myself a job. Not easy to find because instead of getting an education and/or learning a trade, I spent my early 20s getting fucked up. But there's some free training for certain jobs available around here for people on low income. You might want to look into that in your area. Also, have you tried applying for food stamps? It sounds like situations like yours are why they're available in the first place.
 
Yeah man I am on food stamps, as well as social security disability. It isn't very much a month and it is all gone until my next check, August 3rd.
 
Do what you have to to buy yourself more time.
The simple fact is, after suicide, there is not potential to feel better.
Things can get better, it's a matter of determination, and time.

Hang in there bud. <3
 
<3BrokedownpPalace<3 and<3Bojangles<3 for reaching out for a hand and for extending a hand. <3Bluelight<3

I also think that you should consider going back to the rehab you were in and talking to them about your situation. It is unbelievable that they would not have at least someone to help you find housing once you get out. Talk about being thrown into the lion's den! Whatever you do, stay strong about your recovery.
 
BrokedownPalace said:
I just did 5 months this year, then 35 daus in rehab, now probably another 9 months in jail. I'd rather do 9 months in rehab.
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Fuck them, go to Canada or Mexico or south america or anywhere and have a real fucking adventure, what have you got to lose ?, go start over somewhere else, what's the worse thing that can happen ? they catch you and you do the 9 months anyways, but fuck off overseas for 10 years and see what the universe has to offer, a change is as good as a rest, oh and get off all those fucking drugs too as soon as safely possible.

Just my opinion but there is nothing stopping you re-inventing yourself any time.
 
Hey bro, I never post over here, but noticed your avitar. From one cheesehead to another, I hope you find some peace.

I'll shoot you some links to some recent soundboards tomorrow.
 
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original, abusive content removed. No one needs to have read that shit, and neither did you deserve to be spoken to like that, BP. ~ Vaya
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I guess you're just the championof life then, man. I'm far from a fucking pussy, man. If you have been thru even a quarter of the shit I have been thru in my life I think you'd take that statement back. Getting diagnosed with cancer 4 months after my father dies, nearly dying from that. While at the same time dealing with a number of mental issues that makes life very difficult. I kept my head help high though and got thru all of it. Jail, chemotherapy, rehabs, people dying, and now I finally reach out for some fucking help, because before i did it ALL on my own, I'm a pussy?

Well FUCK YOU man, thanks for shedding the answer to life. Subs saved my life, as well. If you'd gone thru half the shit I had to, all bfore i turned 24 you'd be fucking crying.

Fuckin' bum..
 
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And Bojangles, your inbox is full and I just would like to know what the deal is, man.. I haven't heard from you and it's been like 6 hours.. Time's runnig out, I may have to leave my Mom's soon and go back to the streets for the night..
 
^Thanks. Now back to the streets for the night I guess. :( I havent heard from bojangles. Some things sound good but don't work out as they seem.
 
Hey man I just sent an email like 5 minutes ago! Sorry about the wait I got held up at the office for a bit. =]

-Bo
 
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Wow... you did 120 whole days in jail? What is that like 4 months? I guess you got caught stealing a snickers bar or something?

Encase you didn't realize, some people on here have been locked up for REAL SHIT. They have REAL PROBLEMS too.

If you actually spent some decent time in prison, you'd probably have a lot more respect for people. You sound like one of those young little pussies that got busted with a dimebag of weed and goes around telling the world how tough he thinks he is. "Dude I'm tough shit.. I served 120 days in county" lmfao.

If you really are tough, take a trip to NJ and PROVE IT. Because talking shit on a public forum tends to make you look like a major pussy, which I'm pretty convinced right now that you are. Tough guys just don't act like that - true story.

Brokedown just ignore this stupid mfkr I'm not even sure why I addressed him myself. Some people are just disrespectful little cunts and have never had their asses properly handed to them. Dude is telling you he knows what "problems" are and all he's served is 4 fucking months in jail, that is some funny shit.

Now let me go take a nap now because I care that much.
 
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You're pretty fucking hard brah , I wanna be jus like you when I grow up lolol... fuckin troll.

Jangles - props my dude , I am glad to see you are still spreading the love and good vibes , it's been awhile since we talked.

BrokedownPalace - Wish you nothing but the best , if you can afford a train ticket up to boston I have an appartment up here which you are more than willing to stay at. I am in recovery and can offer you a sound / basic set. If you have a drivers license I can swing you a job. Best of luck my dude - PM me if you considier making the trip, it takes about 3 hours via amtrak to north station.
 
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TDS is no place for flaming! Accordingly, all forms of the abusive post (its original and quoted forms) have been removed from this otherwise inspiringly heartfelt thread.

Keep up this love, you beautiful people. I'm choked up at some of the responses I've seen in here. They've been just... Wonderful!

Be well, all.
:)

~ Vaya
 
Hey, OP I live in NJ as well. There is an organization called Collaberative Supportive Programs of NJ (CSPNJ), they provide services such as housing and job placement, addicton and recovery services for mentally ill and chemically dependant individuals. They also administer a Section 8 Rental assistance program. Their main office is in Freehold but, they have outreach centers all over NJ. Their website is www.cspnj.org. Check it out. Good luck to you and keep up the good work, I know how hard it is to stay clean but, I also know if I can anyone can.
 
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