For some reason I have all my shit together when I'm using I have a house (that I pretty much never leave) money gettin along with family and friends and am just a better person more responsible. And then when I get off smack I cry all the time super depressed I'm drunk all the time don't have a place to stay fighting with everyone no money cause I lose my inspiration to make it and just spend it on booze anyway. I'm not me when I'm not high and that's really fucked up and sad.
