I know this report sounds unbelievable and ridiculous. But This combo almost drove me to suicide .I use cannabis daily .I also use amphetamines probably 4 or 5 times a week. I have done Mushrooms 4 or 5 times ,LSD twice and dxm more times than i can remember and i have never had as vivid ,realistic or such clear hallucinations like this before. Now Soberish I realize how ridiculous some of the things i was thinking ,seeing and feeling were .I also realized how non of it was real. Also please not that while i was hallucinating i barely used speed, if not i was using none at all .I was using cannabis like i usually do every day .
So i recently was prescribed ativan for my anxiety and have heard benzos works miracles when it comes to upper come downs .
After 2 days of being up i took 4 1mg ativan pills. i fell asleep and awoke early the next mouring around 5 am. i went down stairs to get changed and ran into imaginary plastic wrap,tape,string etc . I cursed and swore at the top of my lungs . I thought my sister was playing a joke and booby traped our basement .
I went back to my room then noticed that the walls and furniture looked like they were dripping sand that was the same color of the object i was looking at. I then realized oi was hallucinating. I played it off as me just being sleep deprived and went back to bed it was a woke up then my mother insisted on bringing me to the ER so i went. They did a drug test.but before he asked me if anything would show up on it .I explained that i would most likley test positive for Clonazepam,amphetamines, and Marijuana.The results made 0 sense . It said i tested positive for Cocaine and pot . I havent used coke in a month or 2. He told me that i was hallucinating so he couldent take anything i said as fact .I told him that he was a real peace of shit and to fucking help me ! He then said ok came back with a prescription for 60x 1mg ativan instead of my original 15x 1mg lorazepam a month. I went home.
i had to work from Tuesday-Saturday. I ended up calling in sick every day but saterdaybecause that was when my hallucinations stoped
1 week past . I bought more speed .did some in the mourning and around supper time i took 3 mgs of lorazepam to combat my comedown anxiety. I fell asleep again and awoke early again the next day around 6:30. There were 2 men standing in my room . they were somewhat transparent and Looked like they just came out of a black and white movie . I screamed at the top of my lungs awaking my family . when My sister came barging in to see what was wrong the men disappeared.A couple hours later I went to my buddys apartment and was terrified . All that day i continued to see what i thought were ghosts.I dident know what to do . That night i was so scared to walk home alone that i ended up procrastinating and dident leave his place untill about 11:00 pm . I walked home. I was seeing crowds of people standing on the road ahead not moving id keep walking towards them then eventually theyd vanish. then appear behind me or to the side or what have you for the remainder of my walk. that night i dident sleep at all because of this girl that was standing in my room . I tried to concentrate on my computer but couldn't because everything was hard to read and ocassionally moving .
On tuesday i went to that same buddys apartment . he was really worried because i was telling what has been going on . the hallucinations did not improve since monday . Luckly i got a drive home tuesday so i dident have to endure the horror of the crowd of people .
Tuesday night i was exhausted . I screamed "fuck you! you crazy bitch! I dont know what you want but i wanna sleep so fuck you! "at the girl that was in my room again that night . I fell asleep angry at the "ghost".
I woke up Wednesday still seeing these random people or ghosts .I broke down and told my mother she thought i was insane and going to hurt her so she kicked me out.Then i again went to my buddys apartment. He told me i couldent stay the night because it was him and his girls sex night and that i needed to go to the hospital. I dident want to intrude so i left and walked to my home. On my walk home was when everything got really messed up. The snow was moving rapidly like waves or like we were having an earth quake or somthing. the side walk was cracking and breaking beneath my feet . I could feel the cracking ! it was so real!. I started crying when i seen the crowd of people up ahead except this time when i got close they dident disapear . I ran threw the imaginary crowed and felt like someone grabbed one of my arms when i went by . I was freaked out . i made it home And spent the next couple hours standing in the backyard talking to my mother begging her to let me in while the crowd stood behind me in the woods. One stood inches from my ear on the right side of me . During those few hours I honestly Contemplated killing myself . I Believed i was being haunted by a demon or somthing . I just wanted to run to the near by train bridge and jump. Before i did anything my mother let me in the house and i collapsed when i got in side and started having the worst anxiety attack of my life . I couldent believe what just happend. i went to my room with my dog and fell asleep crying while my mother sat beside me wondering what drug i was fucked up on . But I was sober .
The next day the hallucinations died down . The people i saw became more and more transparent during the rest of the week . eventually i stopped seeing these scary sights. After i was back to reality i broke down my drug use and figured out the only thing ive done differantly was take ativan for comedowns and figured that that was what caused these hallucinations to happen.
Has anyone else had this happen to them or somthing similar. Im now scared to take my ativan even as prescribed . because im worried that ill go threw that hell again.
So i recently was prescribed ativan for my anxiety and have heard benzos works miracles when it comes to upper come downs .
After 2 days of being up i took 4 1mg ativan pills. i fell asleep and awoke early the next mouring around 5 am. i went down stairs to get changed and ran into imaginary plastic wrap,tape,string etc . I cursed and swore at the top of my lungs . I thought my sister was playing a joke and booby traped our basement .
I went back to my room then noticed that the walls and furniture looked like they were dripping sand that was the same color of the object i was looking at. I then realized oi was hallucinating. I played it off as me just being sleep deprived and went back to bed it was a woke up then my mother insisted on bringing me to the ER so i went. They did a drug test.but before he asked me if anything would show up on it .I explained that i would most likley test positive for Clonazepam,amphetamines, and Marijuana.The results made 0 sense . It said i tested positive for Cocaine and pot . I havent used coke in a month or 2. He told me that i was hallucinating so he couldent take anything i said as fact .I told him that he was a real peace of shit and to fucking help me ! He then said ok came back with a prescription for 60x 1mg ativan instead of my original 15x 1mg lorazepam a month. I went home.
i had to work from Tuesday-Saturday. I ended up calling in sick every day but saterdaybecause that was when my hallucinations stoped
1 week past . I bought more speed .did some in the mourning and around supper time i took 3 mgs of lorazepam to combat my comedown anxiety. I fell asleep again and awoke early again the next day around 6:30. There were 2 men standing in my room . they were somewhat transparent and Looked like they just came out of a black and white movie . I screamed at the top of my lungs awaking my family . when My sister came barging in to see what was wrong the men disappeared.A couple hours later I went to my buddys apartment and was terrified . All that day i continued to see what i thought were ghosts.I dident know what to do . That night i was so scared to walk home alone that i ended up procrastinating and dident leave his place untill about 11:00 pm . I walked home. I was seeing crowds of people standing on the road ahead not moving id keep walking towards them then eventually theyd vanish. then appear behind me or to the side or what have you for the remainder of my walk. that night i dident sleep at all because of this girl that was standing in my room . I tried to concentrate on my computer but couldn't because everything was hard to read and ocassionally moving .
On tuesday i went to that same buddys apartment . he was really worried because i was telling what has been going on . the hallucinations did not improve since monday . Luckly i got a drive home tuesday so i dident have to endure the horror of the crowd of people .
Tuesday night i was exhausted . I screamed "fuck you! you crazy bitch! I dont know what you want but i wanna sleep so fuck you! "at the girl that was in my room again that night . I fell asleep angry at the "ghost".
I woke up Wednesday still seeing these random people or ghosts .I broke down and told my mother she thought i was insane and going to hurt her so she kicked me out.Then i again went to my buddys apartment. He told me i couldent stay the night because it was him and his girls sex night and that i needed to go to the hospital. I dident want to intrude so i left and walked to my home. On my walk home was when everything got really messed up. The snow was moving rapidly like waves or like we were having an earth quake or somthing. the side walk was cracking and breaking beneath my feet . I could feel the cracking ! it was so real!. I started crying when i seen the crowd of people up ahead except this time when i got close they dident disapear . I ran threw the imaginary crowed and felt like someone grabbed one of my arms when i went by . I was freaked out . i made it home And spent the next couple hours standing in the backyard talking to my mother begging her to let me in while the crowd stood behind me in the woods. One stood inches from my ear on the right side of me . During those few hours I honestly Contemplated killing myself . I Believed i was being haunted by a demon or somthing . I just wanted to run to the near by train bridge and jump. Before i did anything my mother let me in the house and i collapsed when i got in side and started having the worst anxiety attack of my life . I couldent believe what just happend. i went to my room with my dog and fell asleep crying while my mother sat beside me wondering what drug i was fucked up on . But I was sober .
The next day the hallucinations died down . The people i saw became more and more transparent during the rest of the week . eventually i stopped seeing these scary sights. After i was back to reality i broke down my drug use and figured out the only thing ive done differantly was take ativan for comedowns and figured that that was what caused these hallucinations to happen.
Has anyone else had this happen to them or somthing similar. Im now scared to take my ativan even as prescribed . because im worried that ill go threw that hell again.
