LifeQuitter
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Feb 11, 2024
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If you don‘t mind me asking what country you reside in?Excellent post and I'm sorry to hear about your struggle with opiates. But trust me mate, you have nothing to be jealous about. This is not a life, this is just a fight for survival. Endone is a immediate release oxy and I really don't have any "happy" effects. But it does the job and gets me out of bed in the morning. Not everything is perfect because a day has 24 hours. But morning depression is the worst so I have to be grateful because there's no cure for TRD and PTSD.
I asked my Psychiatrist about tolerance and he said it shouldn't be a problem at such a small dose. The only problem is that I feel like a criminal as my Dr. just reapplied for another year of Endone therapy. My life literally depends on Governments Health Department decision because they are only interested in pain management as Oxy is not officially approved for TRD. So I am still waiting and hoping because I don't have a plan B.
Where I am from no doctor in the whole universe would give me Oxy and on paper I am diagnosed with the exact same stuff: treatment resistant depression and PTSD (and a couple of other stuff like past history with body dysmorphia, and now multiple substance abuse).
Oxy is only prescribed here after surgeries and stuff.
Funny little side story: I took them too back in 2022; funny enough I OD‘d in the hospital bc they mistakenly gave me too high dosage. Never had an opiate in my system back then and they slammed me with a way too high dosage. Left me with 60/30 blood pressure and unconscious having to be hooked with Narcan and then feel the worst physical insane pain bc I was only a few hours awake after being cut open crazily.
Would take this horrible day ANY DAY over what I have to go through today. The stuff I experience now is worse than any of this. For real.