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If you had the choice to go back in time, would you?

I'm currently struggling with addiction and trying to move forwards in life. I wouldn't take back anything. I am me.
 
Tommyboy said:
I said that I would not take opiates if I had to do it over again, but it was for different reasons then you mention others may have. I never got too bad with it, and even now it is still under control. I have always been functional while using, and maintained a job along with doing well in school. I was also putting a certain amount of money in the bank per week, and didn't go into that savings to purchase drugs.

The main reason that I wouldn't take the drugs if I had another chance is because getting high is on my mind a lot. For example, earlier this summer I knew that I was getting some roxi 3 weeks from the time I returned home from school. I knew that I likely was not doing any before then, and was fine with that, but everyday it was still in my mind that I was getting stuff in 3 weeks. It just occupied too much valuable space and thoughts in my brain.
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Yeah, this is pretty much how I feel. I've had a lot of shitty stuff happen resulting from my heroin/cocaine use, but the main damage is the fact that my mind is occupied 90% of the time with the thought of using drugs. In fact, I hardly even think about sex anymore and I"m 24!

I feel like having an addiction has given me some interesting perspectives that I wouldn't have had otherwise, and I don't really regret my use, now that its already happened. But if I could go back in time, I think I would choose not to do heroin, just because knowing the pleasure is really a curse.
 
I would go back in time n so i would never of done that first line of h on that train i would still do narcos just never heroine it fucked me over
 
If you had the choice to go back and never take drugs would you?

Hey everyone, I just saw the thread in this forum called 'would you go back in time if you could?', it immediatley made me think of this question. Its something I try to ask any of my friends who use drugs, I think its pretty interesting.

Tbh for me, I would. To me, drugs are just too good for their own good if you get me. I have had some of the best times of my life on drugs and don't regret them or want to stop taking drugs anytime in the near future, I am facinated by psycoactive substances and they interest me like nothing has before. They can make you experience some crazy things and in retrospect of what ive just written, I wish I had never tried alcohol, cannabis, opiates, downers, stims or dissociatives + synthetic cannabinoids. To me these are very very reacrational substances and they just make me feel to damn good, even if I don't spend all my money on drugs or become addicted or hardly ever take them it is still not neccesarily healthy and I believe especially cannabis and synthetics, have made me pretty lazy altogether and spacy. Not to a point were I have problems or to a point its noticeable unless you completely know your body and I haven't bothered taking a long enough break from cannabis for a while to understand 'life' as a whole without it but, I have no negatives yet even my tolerance is very low I smoke like .25 - .5 a day which is nothing compared to what a lot of people smoke a day. Anyway im a little bit drunk and ive gone off topic.

I just think that there too good, now I have tried them. I want to try more, it isn't an addiction I don't constantly think about being high or do anything bad to get drugs, I dont have any withdrawals when sober or anything. Simpily, I have no negatives apart from finnancial and maybe health problems I do not know about or that haven't come up yet. I still, just wish I had maybe waited on trying drugs, I smoked my first joint when I was like 13, inbetween I dabbled with opiates from the medicine cabinet then when I found another source for cannabis at around 14 made smoking a weekly thing, then daily bla bla bla. Ever since then ive been pretty much hooked, I just liked being fucked up it feels good, It makes me talkative, It makes me have less anxiety problems, It kills boredom, Whats not to like? I should have probably waited till I was at least 16 or maybe even 18 till trying some of the less soft drugs I have tried, or make taking any psycoactive substance a daily thing.

Basically, I don't regret it but I just like it too much. Its far to interesting and it has positives. I firmly agree with the term 'ignorance is biss' though, if I hadn't drank like a 1/4 bottle of gin that first time maybe I would be a better person. I probably wouldn't have dropped out of school or if I did, I would have made sure I had a job instead of my current situation of trying but, not being able to find work. I would maybe be a happier person overall, I would maybe this or maybe that, who knows. Maybe I would have been the same but, I do believe that drugs have overall, been a negative thing on my life. If I hadn't tried them or waited as I said, I would maybe be a overall better/happier person, I will never know.

What are other peoples views on this? I think its the most interesting question to ask a regular drug user :)
 
Znegative said:
you don't have to start a new thread to respond to an already existing one, I'm going to merge this with the one you mentioned.
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Well I intended it to be its own thread solely on drugs but whatever, most people have probably wrote about their drug use in this thread anyway. Thanks anyway man it was pretty pointless I was just drunk haha
 
As much as I wish I hadnt touched dope at such an early age, I wouldnt go back in time to stop myself from doing it. I met my psych dealer through my dope dealer and we instantly hit it off. He provided me with a constant supply of LSD, Mescaline (one batch that I spaced out and used on special occasions), 2C-B, Ketamine, and PCP (whenever he had it available). If I hadnt touched dope, more than likely I wouldve never gotten the chance to try any psychedelics and wouldve slowly (or quickly) killed myself through drug abuse. Long story short, psychedelics (specifically LSD) saved my life from suicide. As much as drug (ab)use has damaged me, Im truly grateful for all the experiences and hardships that I went through because they have made me who I am today.
 
Fuck yes I would go back. To the moment where I'm first offered dope, and say "I dunno man, with my history with opiates..." and finish the fucking sentence with "I'd better not" instead of "ahh fuck it I'm curious". I can't imagine how different things would be...
 
In a new york second.
I would have called in sick the day my knee blew up.
9 surgery's and a partial knee replacement later, I hobble around like an old man.
Well, I just turned 55, I guess I AM an old man.
So, hell yes.
 
Honestly I love drugs but I think I would go back... Before I started using hard drugs of course. I mean pot was okay but I wish I didn't start using pills and shit. Oh well though.
 
... me think, that I already went back in time and told myself to do certain drugs for a certain amount of time ...=D
 
OTGee said:
Well I intended it to be its own thread solely on drugs but whatever, most people have probably wrote about their drug use in this thread anyway. Thanks anyway man it was pretty pointless I was just drunk haha
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Excuse the man. He was drunk. ::))

Im stoned. Which ways back? :)
 
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Yes I would.

At least just to tell myself not to go the IV rout. That shit fucked me up good and proper. If I knew then what I know now I probably wouldn't have ever done heroin to begin with. Probably would have just stuck to oxy and percs and then only on the weekends at that.
 
The second one digs to deep in hope of finding golden nuggets in one's brain, is either just cause you took to much constantly and need to
remind yourself how poly you've gotten, but digress was that.

My most important """feeling(anyone seen anyone around ;-)""" connected to self-worth and not self-conning, is the feeling of being responsible
for everything that's happened, never did no Oxy, but when in Europe.....I need to own my mistakes and successes, or it might be i'm full of shit
and lying to myself.......

YES! Id go back, but NO, I wouldn't want a day in my life to go amiss....
 
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