you had that? wow. how much were you doing a day? how did you have that type of money? jesus.
how were you NOT getting HIGH!? I could always down alot of dope but I know a gram would just get me "normal". but when I started going gram+ I would still get jammed. The more I went after a gram the more I'd get jammed and jammed. if you're doing more and more and more, then you should be getting jammer and jammer and jammer.
btw- does everyone call getting high "jammed" or is that only a Boston thing? I dont see/hear it much other than the peeps I know.
My boyfriend and I were both functional addicts. He owned his own business, and business was decent, I had a good job in the the financial district - nothing big, just admin, but it paid decently. And we had my connect, a guy I've known since I started using - not some here today gone in a few weeks guy, dude's been around almost 20 years. He liked me (and my bf) and made an exception for us and sold to us wholesale as long as we copped a decent amount.
We'd wake up, get high, go to work, get high in the bathroom, come home, get high, eat dinner, get high, get high while watching tv, fall asleep for a few hours, wake up at 3 am and get high. When it's always there and you know you're not going to run out, it's just like... why the fuck not?
You lose all your receptors, that's why the fuck not :/ We got on methadone not because heroin was ruining our lives, but because we just never got high anymore.
I was clean a year, just detoxed off methadone a couple weeks ago, but I'm having a rough time cos I went down too fast, so I've been using a bit. To me, it feels amazing to cop a small piece and take a few snorts and get fucked up

I'm going to have a bit of fun til the end of the year, and then in January get back on a low dose of methadone and try to do it right this time. But I'll probably always use once in a while - I like it too much. I just don't want to be addicted.
I don't even know how much I was doing. I didn't have to pay attention to that - there was always more.

At least 5 grams a day probably. I just remember saying "fuck it, I really need to get high today", and just doing it and doing it and feeling nothing. And I've never heard of "jammed" - must be an east coast thang. I'm from the east coast but I've been in Cali a while.