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If you could change any of your MDMA history, would you?

Bsiren

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Just wondering...

I find when I speak to MDMA users, former and current, they all seem to consider the decision to initially take MDMA a good one- sometimes profoundly positive.

I think the decision to try E was one of the best decisions I ever made, even though I went through a period of abuse at one point. I'd only change how often I used it in the honeymoon period- we had no idea that we were "over doing it" by rolling almost every weekend. =/

Does anyone wish they never tried E?
 
The only thing I would change is the fact that when I first discovered MDMA, I went through a period where I abused it more than was necessary and probably safe at the time. However I still wouldn't trade those memories for anything, so I would say no, I wouldn't change a thing about my MDMA use. It has given me some of the best memories of my life with many of my best friends.
 
honeymoon period. wow. yeah, i would say that the honeymoon period lasted a little too long. but i think that is how it goes for most. and i will even say that even when i take say a 10month break from it. its like, i get back into that honeymoon phase. because its like my first time again.

but i would never change my mdma use, it changed my life in a very positive way. and i too have great memories and im still making more!
 
I abused the shit out of MDMA but I wouldn't say I regretted a moment of it. I wouldn't be the person I am today if it weren't for ecstasy and I feel it has greatly enriched my life <3
 
I actually wish i tried it earlier then i did, because throughout highschool i was very insecure and anti-social but now i'm so much happier and outgoing. It really did change my outlook on life. My best times so far were all when i was on M.
 
I really wish I didn't abuse it so much when I first started using it. Almost everyweekend for months. The comedowns started getting too intense,and yeah overall it wasn't worth it. But I've taken long breaks and it somewhat feels like my first time, not exactly but pretty damn close. And I plan to keep it like that. But I did have so much good memories when I abused it, I wouldn't trade those for anything.
 
I think if everyone had the ability to reflect on their actions and change them with what they have learned from the experience they would.

Like most people, I wouldn't have abused MDMA so hard when I 1st tried it.

Out of every drug I have abused/withdrawn from, MDMA has been the most devastating in the long run. I don't mean comedown wise, more your loss of reality while munching them frequently :)
 
the only thing i would change if i could would be is the here & now
and that would be to bring back pills from the 80's,
oh i so wished i kept 1 or 2 of every pill from then
so i could have them now.
 
^ absolutely =) Regrets are stupid, imo. I don't really understand them. You wouldn't be the person you are without your experiences. This makes each one precious and special -- good and bad. =)
 
I actually wish i tried it earlier then i did, because throughout highschool i was very insecure and anti-social but now i'm so much happier and outgoing. It really did change my outlook on life. My best times so far were all when i was on M.
Me too, I wish I had made the dive earlier in life when I had the chance.
 
Well I wish I could have learnt about mdma earlier than age 58. I was carrying a traumatic experience around for 35 years and the problems it caused only started to clear after trying mdma.
 
Mdma has been one of the best things ive done in my life and im noty ashamed of it in anyway and im happy with how it was is and will be :D
 
Don't regret it, but I do regret being talked into mixing ketamine and mdma. I get really hallucinatory and depressed on k + mdma, and when the face of the girl I was rolling with morphed into the ex that I'd left, I was pretty much inconsolable. That image & feeling stayed with me for years and was very detrimental to my emotional state back then.
 
To be honest, no. I have gone through the worseeee because of e, but I honestly think that everything contributed to my strength and development today. So I wouldn't even change the worst of the worst.
 
The only thing I wish to have maybe done different is to have tried it in High school. Though how that would have changed my world now... who knows, but I like where I am now and like the fact that I've been responsible with my drug use, which I don't think I would have been back then.
 
i wouldn't say i wished i never done MDMA, but on my 18th i bought 0.5g and shared it with a friend , after doing it in 2 bombs i got a phone call from my dealer saying he accidentally gave us 1g instead of half (0.5g each). We ended up gurning our faces off and generally being E-tarded in a park. I do wish we never done that much but to be fair it wasn't our fault.
 
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