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If You are Thinking about Suicide, Please Read This

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Sweet P, every single person in this thread, and many many more people, all love you and care so much about you. We would all be devestated if you did anything to yourself.
Your parents love you so much as well, their lives would be ruined if you left them. They need you to stick around.
Please take care <3
 
^ I think it would be best if I tell you by PM... I'll send you one now.
 
I think the US should have ONE day where every cop is relieved of his or her duty. Just to see what happens... maybe we all die.

I was crying over my fiance being... you know... Gone...
 
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^^ Hun, have you guys considered getting some relationship counselling?? It seems like you're all over the place with your relationship and that can be damaging to both of your emotions and self-esteem. You obviously love each other very much so it is definitely worth putting in the time and effort to trying some counselling. It will feel so much better for your relationship to come to some kind of stability.
 
^Very helpful links, Señora Ocean :) I wonder if anyone has comprable resources for Canada, Great Britain, Australia or the like. Bookmarked! I need to look over the treatment and resource links again sometime soon esp. as I seem hooked on TDS again.
 
cut urselves sum slack, ppl

and remember - wen u take ur lives, u rnt the only one affected
in fact who knows wats to come in the next life - u may b begging to b allowed back on earth!

the ppl who really suffer r ur family/whanau, ur lover, ur friends...and utha BLers
wen i sumtimes go back to the BL Shrine to pray over ppl ive had as mates on MSN whove died of suicide - the most awful way for ur loved ones to know uve gone cos u hav so much life possibly ahead of u if u just fight and fight thru those black clouds of depression...or even just cry out to the sky (if u dont believe in God) and say 'help me', repeatedly, nightly
those left behind from a suicide never recover the way we do if it was our loved ones' time

my friend Connors mum killed herself wen he was 6 - i wondered that yr why he withdrew into himself
he used to b a happy easy-going kid
hes still happy and easy-going on the surface but hes hooked on oxy - wat does that tell u?
and his gf, my mate, says he has nightmares evry night where he cries for his mum in his sleep

think esp of ur parents - they made u
no parent wants to hav their child die before them
its their worst nightmare

ur life will change - evry one of u - if u battle thru it
so u dont like urself? me neither - but i wudnt kill myself cos i luv my horses and whod look afta them if i died?
my Maverick luvs me so much, he jumps the best for me, and i see the pure joy in that horses eyes wen i visit him at Bex's (the girl who ive leased him out to to teach her how to do sum of the higher classes in show-jumping and eventing)
find sumthing that depends on u and u cudnt leave behind if ur parents rnt enough
no kids? get a dog
dogs luv and need u

theres a reason ur all on this planet - time to go find out wat it is eh
 
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I do not think that of you at all, DW. I do not know either of you well enough to make a call on who you are.
 
sorry mrjj - and evryone
that was too personal, that post - and uncalled for

i was on P and therefore paranoid bout Sweet P talking behind my back

she assures me she hasnt

wen u assume u make an ass outta u and me, so they say
so im the ass!

or i am on P

im editting that post for a start as its not helpful and too personal

however on another note, for all worried bout Sweet P, who is now just a close friend of mine, as we both nd to heal before having relationships.....she has made an almost full recovery

if she ever wants to tell u just how low she went...thats between her and u all
but she is alive and a lot happier

thank God!
 
Just in case some of you were wondering why I suddenly disappeared, I was sectioned under the Mental Health Act on Sunday. I was threatening suicide and I fought with the cops (at least 6 of them!) after they were called out. I put up a big fight but was cuffed, ankle-tied and carried into the back of a patrol car, where they raced me over to the emergency department at the general hospital.

I spent 8 hours there in 4-point restraints, with a spit-mask over my head and several security guards watching over me, before a psychiatrist finally appeared and told me that I was being sectioned. So I was then transferred to the psyc hospital (a completely different facility - not just a ward in the hospital) and spent my time in the high security ward there, which is essentially a prison with empty cell-like rooms, reinforced locked doors, bars over the windows, and nothing but a bed and a toilet. Fortunately I was sedated each night so I wasn't kept awake by the sounds of screaming from the other rooms.

Wasn't a fun time, but I'm out now and feeling a bit better. The doctors have to assess involuntary patients after the first 5 days to see whether they are well enough to be discharged or if they still need to be sectioned. Fortunately I was no longer suicidal, so the doc discharged me and I arrived home last night. He suggested that I stay in one of the lower-security wards for a few more days as a voluntary patient, but by that time I'd had enough of that place and just wanted out. :\
 
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however on another note, for all worried bout Sweet P, who is now just a close friend of mine, as we both nd to heal before having relationships.....she has made an almost full recovery
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I'm not sure I'd call one week clean an "almost full recovery". I mean, I was forced to be clean, being locked up and all. But you're right - I'm getting better, although I still feel like I could relapse at any moment. :\

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^^ Sweet P that is horrific, but I'm glad you're home safe and sound now <3
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Thanks - me too! :)
 
Sweet P- I'm so sorry to hear this! <3
I haven't been on a whole lot this last week or so and didn't even realize this had happened until just now!
I am glad to hear you have been clean for.....what? A week and a half? That's a great start! :) Only good things can come from it<3
 
^ Thanks, ocean. I'm due in court on Wednesday, which is a big incentive to keep away from drugs. I don't wanna be high or in the middle of a comedown while I'm appearing before the judge. :\
 
best of luck Sweet P. <3
it's obvious that you have a good supporting cast on here, but PM me if you ever need to talk.
 
Sweet P said:
Just in case some of you were wondering why I suddenly disappeared, I was sectioned under the Mental Health Act on Sunday. I was threatening suicide and I fought with the cops (at least 6 of them!) after they were called out. I put up a big fight but was cuffed, ankle-tied and carried into the back of a patrol car, where they raced me over to the emergency department at the general hospital.

I spent 8 hours there in 4-point restraints, with a spit-mask over my head and several security guards watching over me, before a psychiatrist finally appeared and told me that I was being sectioned. So I was then transferred to the psyc hospital (a completely different facility - not just a ward in the hospital) and spent my time in the high security ward there, which is essentially a prison with empty cell-like rooms, reinforced locked doors, bars over the windows, and nothing but a bed and a toilet. Fortunately I was sedated each night so I wasn't kept awake by the sounds of screaming from the other rooms.

Wasn't a fun time, but I'm out now and feeling a bit better. The doctors have to assess involuntary patients after the first 5 days to see whether they are well enough to be discharged or if they still need to be sectioned. Fortunately I was no longer suicidal, so the doc discharged me and I arrived home last night. He suggested that I stay in one of the lower-security wards for a few more days as a voluntary patient, but by that time I'd had enough of that place and just wanted out. :\
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I'm so sorry. I've been there, you're not alone.

Fucking doctrine, "danger to self or others." In that case, you could institutionalize anyone eating junk food for filling their arteries with cholesterol or you could commit someone sleeping on the top bunk at the risk of him being malicious enough to accept the possibility of collapsing on you. It is so goddamn vague it pisses me off. Almost every time I've been sectioned it was for the most completely bullshit reasons. I was off the face of the earth for 2 months because I threw a water bottle at the wall. I was committed 3 months for hitting my head (and not to the extent where it was dangerous) against the dashboard just a couple times out of anger.

I haven't had all those events happen simultaneously. Third time I was sectioned they put me restraints for wielding a sword and trying to cut off my arm with it and just to scare people. Yeah I could understand that. I have no memory of what happened after that, they must have tranq'ed me. Fourth time I was sectioned I did go to the psych hospital. And this is in Georgia, where the hospitals are so fucking inhumane (I'd see blood on the shower floor, shit smeared on the polyester curtain, piss on the floor of the bathroom for no apparent reason at all) and dangerous (I nearly got shanked once to give you an idea) the courts are looking over this and it is easily considered the worst state in regards to mental health care. Some could understandably say I'm exaggerating when I speak of those examples, but honestly I don't care, the flashbacks I get are enough of a reminder of the reality of that.

The whole point of this wasn't to go off on a self-absorbed tirade about my own experiences, but instead to let you know you are not alone, you did not deserve this, and there are quite a few including me who understand the hell of those places. I'm sorry.
 
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