If i could turn back time

[jayjaysleepyhead]

Hi fellow lighters not been on for a good few days as ive been basically swallowing and injecting most days sorry if this offends anyone oror if im on the wrong forum ,anyway i thought i would test my tolerance last week as my head was playing games with me so i took 18 klonopin 2 mgs 5 oxycodone 20 mg and a couple of pregablin 300s and i sat on my own in a cafe and got high,then stupidly if that was not enough i joined my friend in injecting a couple of snowballs bad mistake my phone went it was probation she was telling me i couldnt put 2 sentences together and promptly phoned the staff in the ymca where i lived by now i could barely stand and the ambulancce was promptly phoned they told me some white lies that we would go for a quick drive but i ended up in hospital for the night for observation i was lucky and proved a point to myself drugs will always beat me i miss that young innocent boy who was scared to smoke a spliff. I need help because what i done to myself was phsycotic so im seeing a mental health doctor on friday and i hope this could help me maybe some of you guys have done similar to me if so id like to hear ,as at the mo i feel like the only one if only i could turn back time one love jay jay.

 

[Crack'r]

It sounds like you know you have a problem which is the first step. The second is to absolutely WANT to get clean. The third is to get help.

I hope you now have the desire to get clean and Friday can mark a turning point in your life!

I'm getting off a decade long, large opiate habit. Even though it was for pain I couldn't take it anymore and wanted my life back and I can already tell a big difference and it should just get better with time. If you can, try to find some type of exercise that you enjoy doing so it feels like having fun instead of work. My choice is mountain biking where you can go easy or hard, cover lots of ground, get a nice breeze compared to moving slowly ( walking, jogging, etc), and you get to be in the outdoors and see some beautiful sights. Exercise can make you feel great and be very rewarding. But even if you can't do that, a fun hobby can be just as exciting. Find something you are interested in and research it and I bet people are doing it as a hobby. R/C planes or helicopters, jumping out of planes, some kind of vehicle like a car, 4 wheeler, or even something like an Airboat which are amazingly fun btw, and feels like you're flying 6 feet off the ground/water. Even making fireworks which is actually a hobby I'm involved with that most people have no clue is possible.

Just some thoughts.

Best of luck my friend!

 

[S3TH5150]

I'm the same way, I haven't really done nearly as much prescription meds, but more things that were available to me if I was desperate for any fucking high. For example sucking down two bottles of compressed air (keyboard cleaner). Which is lack of oxygen to the brain, I decided to do research after the fact, well when I was able. I was in a grocery store parking lot and I blacked out, was drooling out of my mouth. My cousin was snapping his fingers in my face, I didn't see or hear him, fighting runs in the family so he hits me, that I felt but it literally felt like he tapped me on the face. After I came to, and cleared my head, I then went to the nearest friends, and I was about 14 so I couldn't buy with an I.D. , draw string bag, you get it. Well I didn't do as much this time, but I still managed to empty a can to myself during periods through out the day. Just one of the many things I've tried. I've mixed scripts together but not always that much. I hope you find the help you need.

 

[Keif' Richards]

I'm the same way, I haven't really done nearly as much prescription meds, but more things that were available to me if I was desperate for any fucking high. For example sucking down two bottles of compressed air (keyboard cleaner). Which is lack of oxygen to the brain, I decided to do research after the fact, well when I was able. I was in a grocery store parking lot and I blacked out, was drooling out of my mouth. My cousin was snapping his fingers in my face, I didn't see or hear him, fighting runs in the family so he hits me, that I felt but it literally felt like he tapped me on the face. After I came to, and cleared my head, I then went to the nearest friends, and I was about 14 so I couldn't buy with an I.D. , draw string bag, you get it. Well I didn't do as much this time, but I still managed to empty a can to myself during periods through out the day. Just one of the many things I've tried. I've mixed scripts together but not always that much. I hope you find the help you need.

Air Duster is actually far from being "compressed air", it's full of stuff that is actually quite hazardous to your lungs and your health in general. Do us all a favor and please refrain from ever doing duster again.

As for OP, I would suggest starting a blog or contributing more to The Dark Side forum here on Bluelight as this really isn't Basic Drug Discussion material.

BDD -> TDS

 

[S3TH5150]

I wasn't aware, I understand. And after that day I wouldn't wanna touch it.

 

[Nixiam]

If you really like inhalants, buying nitrous oxide withe plenty of oxygen might be good, but never huff pure nitrous or YOU WILL TURN BLUE AND DIE!

Inhalants never did it for me anyway.