……..
If I could be different, I’d still be the same
The same as the things I dream for
Indifferent to the nightmare
I’m not very resilient, or brave.
I cry a lot because I can’t fend for myself!
Today, no will take where I want to be taken!
I don’t want to do this anyway
Held measure if precaution against my
Being half trodden downward to my break!
If I’ve broken so, then I’ll cry a lot.
Because I’m not very brave.
I’m not very resilient either!
I might that too much
I might lean too hard into fantasy
That mightvtake me straight to hospital.
That might make me too hopeful.
But that’s all that would make me happy.
.SobIbcould become stronger myself.
It’s not easy to do with half a love and I’m alone..
To do with loneliness half way to desperation
All I need is someone to tell me I’m okay..
I wish I could be different
I’d be someone else
Who could he loved
By the one I love
Full, unbroken, together.
- written oct 2020
If I could be different, I’d still be the same
The same as the things I dream for
Indifferent to the nightmare
I’m not very resilient, or brave.
I cry a lot because I can’t fend for myself!
Today, no will take where I want to be taken!
I don’t want to do this anyway
Held measure if precaution against my
Being half trodden downward to my break!
If I’ve broken so, then I’ll cry a lot.
Because I’m not very brave.
I’m not very resilient either!
I might that too much
I might lean too hard into fantasy
That mightvtake me straight to hospital.
That might make me too hopeful.
But that’s all that would make me happy.
.SobIbcould become stronger myself.
It’s not easy to do with half a love and I’m alone..
To do with loneliness half way to desperation
All I need is someone to tell me I’m okay..
I wish I could be different
I’d be someone else
Who could he loved
By the one I love
Full, unbroken, together.
- written oct 2020
