Happiness is when im content with life and i have the main things that i want and have a good quality of life. Those are just some of the things that define happiness for ME.
YES! I want a good quality of life. That's why I went to University, when back to University post grad, got a good job teaching, good pay with good benefits.
I no longer have a good quality of life. I lost my job, my insurance, and had to file bankruptcy.
I can't pay all my bills.
I can't see my doctor. I can't get meds. I don't qualify for free medical treatment.
My unemployment checks are 8 weeks late now, and I can't find anyone to tell me anything at the unemployment department.
Everything was going well for me. I got my kids all raised, then I started on my dream of being a teacher, spending several years at University. Then my circumstances fell into lovely and sensible order. I found a job. I loved that job. LOVED it. The kids, the pay, the insurance, the mental stimulation... all good.
However, more teachers than you might think are on these boards and/or on drugs, because with test scores being all that matters, the stress kills us. When you spend time with students you realize that THEY don't care about test scores because they have other, more pressing concerns, that our educational system ignores, and scores are never what they are supposed to be.
Now I'm stranded and love to get out of this feeling of suffocating by getting high. I have generous friends who've helped me when they could.
It's been awhile now. I don't now what to do anymore. Just the idea of floating off into a nice sleep and not waking up is appealing.