Is there any particular reason except of, having life success of downhill and after recalling self as not hero but handling all away...A reason experincer becoming and having, militariant behavior when tripping, i had my laughs ten years ago and still not saying any of being experinced enough but through many different substances it came to me, i have to be militarient but enjoynment takes new from of surveillance...any of know of? Am i the most miserable panhead to protect from meself or has things come more realistic through psychothropis or what is wrong, 'cause enjoyment takes a new form then...i can't be a total lone or a victim of internet sale psychedelics and fortunately not too deep or if any to 2Cs...Any have idea of is there way to miss the large scala selfhish catastrope?