I wholeheartedly agree!!!! A GOOD doctor will have real life experience, will have experienced real pain, grief, suffered debilitating problems of some kind, so they actually know what it's like to NEED HELP. Not just read lines out of a textbook.
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thegreenhand
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You mean going down a number list of SSRIs to prescribe after a 5 min conversation isn’t the best way to practice psychiatry… who knew
but yeah, I’ve been feeling strange lately. Sometimes I’ll have moments for about 5 mins where I feel this all consuming mental pain completely shut me down. It’s like it’s impossible to do anything but just sit there and not move. It really feels like physical pain. Makes me sick to my stomach, and my face gets red hot. But the cause is purely mental… aggh
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Ahhh I'm so sorry, I get moments somewhat like that do at times. It just feels like I'm on the verge of having a panic attack. I get hot flashes, and start feeling an imminent sense of doom. It really sucks. I have to step back and meditate in situations like this.You mean going down a number list of SSRIs to prescribe after a 5 min conversation isn’t the best way to practice psychiatry… who knew
but yeah, I’ve been feeling strange lately. Sometimes I’ll have moments for about 5 mins where I feel this all consuming mental pain completely shut me down. It’s like it’s impossible to do anything but just sit there and not move. It really feels like physical pain. Makes me sick to my stomach, and my face gets red hot. But the cause is purely mental… aggh
thegreenhand
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Yeah there’s no rhyme or reason to when they hit, at least as far as I can tell. Imminent sense of doom is exactly right. I’m just grateful that I’m moving back home soon… I need to rest after the last year and a half of covid
If it's been 6 weeks and you feel WORSE, you should go back to your doctor or psychiatrist and discuss it with them.
Jabberwocky
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I think that it can be physical pain, not just "feel like physical pain" I believe that depression has lots to do with inflammation. In your whole body.You mean going down a number list of SSRIs to prescribe after a 5 min conversation isn’t the best way to practice psychiatry… who knew
but yeah, I’ve been feeling strange lately. Sometimes I’ll have moments for about 5 mins where I feel this all consuming mental pain completely shut me down. It’s like it’s impossible to do anything but just sit there and not move. It really feels like physical pain. Makes me sick to my stomach, and my face gets red hot. But the cause is purely mental… aggh
I have some weapons to fight against that shit. Oregano, garlic, chili, black pepper, cayenne are some of my favorite strong weapons. And intermittent fasting.
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How long has it been? Any tine I've taken them I generally start to feel better by around 2-4 weeks, with full effect coming through closer to 6-8 weeks. But it's different for everybody. I'm sorry they've made you feel bad :/
thegreenhand
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Agreed on inflammation. Cortisol fucks you up
I’ll add turmeric to your list as well
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Hmmm, yeah that's a bummer you should be feeling them at that point. 10mg is the smallest dose of celexa, maybe you can talk to your doctor about either raising it or switching to a different med. I felt alright with less side effects (in comparison to other SSRI) on both celexa + Lexapro but everyone is effected differently.
Jabberwocky
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Wow, so turmeric is known on this forum as well? I see it around the webz... mentioned... when i study this stuff. I need to buy some and give it a serious test trial. Thanks
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Yep, I have used turmeric in the past before. It's greatWow, so turmeric is known on this forum as well? I see it around the webz... mentioned... when i study this stuff. I need to buy some and give it a serious test trial. Thanks
Sorry I misunderstood your other post saying 6 weeks.
Even 5 weeks and nothing??? Time to try something else dude.
Maybe try an SNRI??
I'm glad meds are work for you, I'm planning on going back on meds myself because this is just way to intense to deal with on my own. I wish you luck with the therapist, hopefully you see the improvements that you want with him.
I'm sorry you had such a horrible experience with those doctors, I can relate to being misunderstood though. No one in my family understands mental illness. It's not like they do it with malicious intent but it's still incredibley frustrating to deal with, for example, when they think lack of energy and motivation is just laziness. It's not like I want to stay in bed all day and avoid responsibilities, it's just that I feel so incredibly exhausted that even fun things like watching tv or playing video games feel like an overwhelming and unsatisfying chore. It makes me feel so lonely that no one who knows me irl knows understand what I go through...that's basically why I frequent these threads, it feels comforting to be around people who understand what it's like to deal with mental illness. But anyway, it's good to hear you're feeling better now. If you start feeling unwell again then hopefully you'll find a better doctor who actally undersands what you're going through.I can kiiiiinda relate, but in a slighty different way. My severe anxiety and panic attacks have reared their very ugly and unwanted heads the last week or so and have been completely debilitating, which started leading to depression because I didn't know what to do to get out of this funk. I went and saw a few doctors who basically fobbed me off saying there's nothing they can do for me and if it gets bad enough then go to hospital and wait to see the mental health team there............RIIIIIIIIIGHHTTTIIIIIOOOOOO
For me when it gets that bad, and when no one will help me, my headspace goes reeeeeeeally fuckn dark man....like, my fiance has known me forover 15 years and even he's never seen me like that before. It really scared him.
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As it turns out, I went ahead and ditched the therapist I saw and I'm starting fresh with someone new next week. Hopefully it goes better.
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Even if it appears you got little where (like that phrase), it’s likely progress was still made, things are always developing, especially consciousness. It’s a process that has so many layers.
And it takes time and the progress isn’t always apparent as it can be challenging and stressful.
So I support you following your gut and switching therapist. But I’m just saying maybe don’t mistakenly see it has been a wasted time and resources. It’s part of the stepping stone process.
It may be that you will get to the heart of things sooner next time around, from the exact path leading you there.
There is only going forwards anyway. The Now is always here too. That’s a great thing to focus on. The moment. There is always therapy in that itself.
My own CBT I’ve been trying to access for about 3 years, sent pillar to post, never actually beyond spread out, alleged initial assessments, usually with a different person each time.
I was just about finally in, but we agreed I need a different service ideally, so I’m due to visit an addiction centre with a team of doctors and nurses for advice and maybe support, possibly more.
I’m trying to get my physical energy up first, currently annihilated with fatigue but my lifestyle needs massively reshaping.
It’s so hard to do though with a true extreme OCD psychosomatic type Anxiety and panic disorder, which makes it impossible to live with already impossible catch 22 physical irregularities.
New mattress coming next few weeks, I’ve had an awful bed last 3 years.
Way too sinky. I’ve always liked a good bit of firmness,
I literally cannot wait. Sometimes I have to spend days in bed just getting enough energy to deal with allergies to breathe another day, eat a single daily meal.
I end up fasting 36 to 45 hours sometimes. It’s after a fast I usually feel best, once I’ve faced the allergy management task.
Good luck DeficiT. Go onto it positively, no pressure or expectation, nothing to lose and always more progress to be had, gradually.
thegreenhand
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I’m looking for a new one myself. Most people go through a number of therapists before finding one they vibe with, at least so I’ve been told
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Oh yeah, I've definitely been down that road. I've gone through numerous ones. Only a couple of them have I gone back to you for any meaningful amount of time.
Jabberwocky
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Yo. So i have been about 10 days without anyone. Some left me behind, i left the rest behind. I wanted to keep mom because i love her. So i called her. She insulted me to fucking ruins. So i took my sharpest knife, went to bathroom and stabbed my left arm to fucking ground beef. Ground ghost fart. Just woke up covered in my own blood and washed myself with soap. Beer now. I want someone to talk to. Fuck it, i DEMAND someone to talk to. Name dropping: @deficiT @n3ophy7e . We can talk about anything. I just refuse to feel like i have been left completely alone.
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Hey, I'm really sorry for feeling alone, and I'm sad that this happened to you. Are you still wanting to hurt yourself? I messaged you on here. But if you really need someone to talk to, like on the phone or video chat, I can do that as well.
Jabberwocky
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Thank you superhero. My voice is shattered due to pain so phone or video chat is out of the question now. Still wanting to hurt myself? not now. I do not have the proper means to do it. But i will have them. i need about 2 weeks. Then this madness ends.