I wished I knew about this site when I was a tweaker

Okay.....8 yr's ago I smoked so much meth that I went the a psychosis. I've seen people do more but they never wound up like me. I never ate nor drank fluids......I went thru a psychosis in the city and I walked around the whole sitting delusional that cops where after me and they where just trying to see me make a bad move to arrest me....I was so convinced that they where that I called them and in my delusional state said I had gave three girls HIV. Which I didn't have nor have I ever used needles. This brought the cops down on me hard. First I asked if I could go to the hospital to check if I was infected. They said yes but they also knew I had been using meth. So after freaking out in the hospital...I had a bench warrent and they took me to the worst jail in the midwest......Prison is better then this jail, thats how bad it is. So I get out after five days and by this point I was completely delusional. I thought cannibals and zombies where after me. I think it was caused by the detox in jail. I get out and I go to the club I worked at and I get five mollies and ate them all and I wanted to end it. Not to hurt anyone but out of fear that I was going to die a painful death. I then get picked up by the cops for public intox and they shoot me up in both forarms with a gun like needle and they take me to the hospital....After the two shots it knocked me smooth out.....After that I was in and out of jail four times. The last time I stayed in for two months even tho it was a different jail in my county....I was scared. No advocate no help while in jail.....Went thru this psychosis about 7 months then I started to get my marbles back. But, I lost friends, my gf at the time.....and I was humbled beyond humbled.

 

Damn that sounds rough. Its a shame that jails have become defacto menral hospitals.