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I wish I was little again ..

mealltach

mealltach

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A bit of a sad post...
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But there are pros and cons to both being a small child and being an adult. The emotions you experience as an adult, whether they be positive or negative, are such a beautiful part of life. Just as beautiful as childlike innocence, in my opinion.
You can find things in your life that bring you back to those days...you just need to look closer.
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~the *secret* does not necessarily have to remain enigmatic~
(just ask (and open your eyes))
"Beauty is truth," -Keats
 
we rush to escape youth, unaware that the rational world will overtake us and confuse the most simple of dreams
although you cannot have the initial experience back, it is never too late to recapture the feeling of little things having all the significance...when you learn to look for them, they will be there..
 
kay --
you will be happy again. i'm so sorry it's just not now. there are rough spots in life that happen, and they are unfortunately unavoidable. keep your chin up. things work themselves out when they're ready to be worked out. everything happens for a reason. just take it one day at a time. i'm here if ya need me. ((squirt squeeze))
-- squirt
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"sweet release / i feel better / and i hope this state of mind will last forever / sweet release / a relevation / and i long to show the world my situation"
 
When I was a little kid I used to collect nails, why you may ask why would a kid collect rosted old nails - but I had a good reason, I would drive around a little truck I had - those little toy trucks I was maybe 4 or 5 - and in the back of the truck there was a yellow door every time I would find a nail i would put it there - and take it back home.
One day my mom asked me why do I collect nails - wasn't it obvious - I Wanted a horse - I always loves horses since I was a baby - those are the most beautifull animals in the world. To get a horse you need a stable cause even a horse needs a place to live, and to build a stable you need nails- everyone should know that - so wasn't it obvious why I collected nails, why did she even have to ask.
I wish I was little again - cause a single rusted nail made me happy, I wish I knew what happy felt like again - cause somewhere I lost it and can't find it again.
I went threw my house and looked for a nail - I found one a brand new shiny one - but still I am not happy - why is that ?
What did I loose growing up - what happend to the nail ? why can't I have my horse back - I used to have it in every nail I found - and now it's gone and he will never come back.
I don't know why I wrote this - I don't know if it makes any sense - I just want to be happy with the nail - and for some reason I can't .
Will I ever be happy again ??
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kay,
this is gonna sound really really really really cheesy, but you've hit the nail on the head. i was just having a conversation about this with a couple people in chat at 6am yesterday. about happiness, and how elusive it seems to get. i'd forgotten, how happy i was as a child. i think we all were. able to take such simple pleasure, hold blind faith in dreams, no matter how realistic or ridiculous they may be. i miss that. we all do i think. and life, i guess is just a search to find that thing again, the same magic that everything had in childhood.
i hope your search for happiness is fruitful.
bc
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**Proud to be an Official member of the Stuck-Up/8-Up Crew**
"Fuck PLUR! it's all about hardcore ass fucking!!"
We'll make great pets...
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kay-
it's tough to do, but if you stop and look around at the world, there are "nails" everywhere. you just have to look for them. You'll get your horse back, man, trust me.
E-bow
 
kay -
i know you're going through some hard times... but just look around you - all of these people are here for you, whether you know it or not. you probably cross someone's mind many many times a day - because i know i think about you and how you're doing quite a lot.
times are hard, but things like this can only make us stronger, right? so keep your head up... and know that when this is all over, you will have learned something and become a much stronger person.
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cheers,
Mellabopper
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~*~*~ meat is no treat for those you eat ~*~*~
animals are for petting!
"does anyone know where we are? because i think i dont have a clue"
 
kay darlin...i know what you mean about wishing you could be young again....there is a certain "safety" when your young...i guess we lose that as we all grow up....but now when i look at my grandparents and older people i see that they once again are happy with the *nail* i guess things just have to come full circle.....i know things are tough right now... but your determined to be happy and i assure you with your will and strength you can accomplish anything...maybe even find that nail again
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love ya..{{hugs}}
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~*PLUR*~
Nicola
it's like beating a dead horse with him!!
i was selling drinks!!
 
Wish I was a little kid again all the time.
It's why I trip so hard- you know the feeling of laughing for no reason?
When the world looks so big and weird?
The whole psychedelic thing seems largely about holding on to the magic of childhood. Notice how little kids are kind of tripping all the time, like it's the natural state for them (same sense of wonder, ability to play, direct experience of reality, free flow of emotions). It's just that this culture makes you think that nothing is magical anymore, so it takes chemical adjustment to tap back into the true, magical state.
 
doesn't this make you guys miss Kay? even though i talk to him all the time, he's like a missing piece of bluelight...
i miss his posts.
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E-girl
IM: tiggersgurl2067
"...there are 2 paths, you can go back, but in the long run... there's still time to change the road you're on..."
 
in the words of one of my favorite men
"Decide to be happy"
I'll ride bikes with you anyday by the way
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[This message has been edited by Sweetpea (edited 27 July 2001).]
 
Bikes are awesome! Don't you all just love riding fast downhill with your feet off the pedals, wind at your back?
 
I was lucky enough to be able to sit down with so many of you at Starscape last month... and Kagan, if you are reading... it meant the world to me to talk to you and let you know the respect I have for you. If you'd ever like to ride a bike, jump in a rain puddle, or play in the snow... let me know.
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Wow, that was a very powerful observation...
Makes you realize how great it was to be a kid,... but of course we always remember the "good" things a little more clearly than the bad.
It's thoughts like this that remind me every single day that I have to enjoy life, and that means squeezing every little bit of fun out of all the "little things" that most adults overlook. There is this one little kid that comes in my store, like every other day or so,... to get a slurpee. This kid acts like he's going to see Santa Claus every day, and he's just getting a frozen drink. I feel his joy and become young vicariously through this child every time I see him.
Read the words posted in this thread and remember to pay attention to life as it whizzes by, you may be suprised at all the wonderfully fun things that go on, things you never noticed before.
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Christian
AIM: TChristianW
The wise person questions himself, the fool others.
 
it sounds like you gots a few screws loose..... sorry. i actually did enjoy that!!
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"It's all fun and games until someone looses an eye."
"Dark clouds may hang on me sometimes, but i'll work it out."
 
K,
I don't know your situation, but I study people so that I can learn about myself. I was sadened by your post.
I have a few sugesstions I hope you will consider.
Your image of the nail reminds us that we gravitate towards those things that can be used to build the things that will make us happy.
With that in mind, go to a hardware store and choose one particular nail to be used as a pendant. It should be shiny. I know that rusty nails hold wood together just as well as new ones, but this nail will be special. As you hold it, you will feel that you were drawn there to get just that one nail. Go home and attach it to a chain. Take a whole day off to do this if you want; this is your special pendant that will change your life. Treat it like the special thing that it is.
It is something that you can believe in.
Figuratively, it is the first nail you will use to build the rest of your life. Literally, it is a symbol of your commitment to build that life. Wear it with pride in your commitment. Go forth and do good things with it.
A second suggestion I have is to go volunteer with kids. You will find their's is a unique type of majik and indespensible in finding your happiness quicker than you now imagine.
Thirdly, if a horse will make you happy, go work with horses. If you try, you may be able to mix the horse and children suggestions into one, or start a business that merges the two.
I have been VERY down too, K. Oddly, I hope I never forget how low I got, so that I can wonder at how far a person can come.
Its time to get of the bench, K, you're in the game. You are your own coach, but you can learn from others. Learn, always learn. Find happiness in learning.
And know that there are people that you don't even know, that are hoping you do well.
=W=
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Treat the mind as you would a computer; Logically. And dammit, turn on the LEARN bit, and leave it ON.
[This message has been edited by Wizard (edited 31 July 2001).]
 
^^^^^^
This guy reminds me of someone in my own real world. Nah, it can't be, K?
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