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I was addicted to pure MDMA for five month and am considering doing it again

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By the way, you act like you're doing some great service to us... but if you haven't noticed, people seem kind of annoyed by you. Judging by the OP's response, it doesn't even seem like she cares what you have to say. So come back at me with some smart-ass response.... Cause I know its coming.


EDIT: wow man, I just read the rest of your posts. You are saying that I never admitted to taking a break? I took a break from ALL DRUGS. I told you this in your annoying PMs to me. Stop trying to make me look bad, nobody cares. And to your comment about CT and MRIs showing nothing? They definitely show blood flow in the brain... you know how it looked like there was holes? I'm sure you know you seem to know everything there is to know about the drug. Well mine is completely fine. You say that there is something wrong with my serotonin levels and I won't admit to it? Well if there is I don't notice it. If I don't notice it then why should I pay attention to it? I think you can easily go about your posts in a nicer way and still get your points across, yet you choose not to. For whatever reason, your mission is to get people to stop using ecstasy all together. I also do not claim that heavy use is OK, I'm just saying that I used heavily and after a long break I am OK. Read my fucking posts man, stop making up bullshit. I think it's ridiculous that you try and scare everyone on here. Ecstasy is a great drug, it has changed my life and made me open my eyes to many things I never did before such as the importance of friendship, helping others, and has helped me in almost completely dropping the ego I once had. You fail to mention any of the SPECIFIC positive things it has done for you and can do for others. Another thing, please stop trying to make me look like a huge drug addict here, I wrote to you in the PM that my pill count is probably around 800. I said in the other post that I am nearing the 1000s. My problems have came from use of other drugs, and besides feeling off and having head pressures for a few months to follow, I do not claim any "serious symptoms" like you point out. Go argue about this shit in advanced drug discussion, judging from this thread alone you seem to be annoying many people in ED.
 
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Well, thanks Somedud, i guess...

Perhaps this is a sign that you are feeling better...
Good.

Listen, you are correct - researchers use doses that they KNOW will cause damage because they are not about to waste their time. The Ricaurte study is one of these.

However, many studies have been done using more moderate dosing regiments, and they STILL find evidence of long-lasting neurotoxic damage. They understand that this argument exists, and plenty of examples illustrate 'recreational dosing'.

Yes, Ricaurte's original study contained flaws.
Most research does.
This does not invalidate ALL of his findings, does it?

I believe that the slides he chose to show were the most pronounced, most extreme examples he could come up with, too.

Even in his 'worst' slides, you can still see evidence of some recovery.
I have talked about this with you before - it is a sign of real hope.
They really fucked those monkeys up, but some recovery was still seen.

In most human cases, levels of serotonin metabolites and markers, like SERT-binding DO return to normal after a long period of time. This might explain your 90% recovery assertion.

Studying the 5-HT network is SO complex that there are many ways to do it - none of them perfect. Many methods of measuring serotonin does indeed show substantial recovery.

However, it is nearly impossible to look at the network directly.
PET and SPECT scans attempt to do this, and they have found results that confirm long-term loss of serotonin function.

It is difficult enough for researchers to figure this out, so reading through abstracts can take a long time my friend. If you have a quality study showing complete destruction of the 5-HT system and subsequent 90% recovery, please do share!

Saying that you popped 10 pills in a night and was FINE two weeks later does NOT discredit the mountain of science, either. It simply means you 'adapted', right?
And apparently it took you two weeks...

I never claimed that MDMA use destroys most of its users. I know better than that.
But I do believe, that damage is being done to many users.

The malleable brain is talented at handling mistreatment.
The brain is resilient, but not impervious.

I appreciate your support and your moderate point of view.
But I will tell you the same thing I tell others that I argue with - if you are going to argue against MDMA neurotoxicity, you are obligated to supply a review of your own symptoms.

You should let the readers decide for themselves what is important.
You should admit to some of the problems you have had, even after 9 months of recovery.
It is only fair.
 
Chitown - believe me, I do not type to service you or the others that are 'annoyed'.

Yes, I am arrogant and condescending in my expertise - both critical qualities for fighting an uphill battle, don't you think?

Many have come to me for help, including Somedud...

But not one annoyed MDMA user like yourself has stepped up to my arguments in a meaningful way. Not yet, at least.

Resorting to name-calling is always a clear sign that the argument is over...
I'm done.
 
I'd like to step in and defend First Bad Comedown. I've been suffering tremendously as a result of a heavy night with MDMA on Halloween. Symptoms include, but are not limited to, depression, anxiety, and most frightfully, a nagging sense of a loss of "self". I've rolled only 4 occasions in my life. That is it. What put me over the edge was Halloween. I had approximately 400-500mg of molly and I spent time in a hot room without proper hydration.

In hindsight, my usage on Halloween was careless and reckless. I did not subscribe to the most fundamental precepts of harm reduction. If I had, I'd have been fine.

But why didn't I? It's a question I struggle with every day. I'm reminded of it every moment, due to my suffering. The answer is simple: misinformation. I'd seen friends roll tons and I myself had rolled before. I came to the conclusion that MDMA was harmless unless taken to extremes.

But according to scientific literature, my usage was extreme (albeit acutely). After all, it was conducive to toxicity (large dose + high body temp). However, due to hearsay and scattered personal experience, I was unaware of this. It has cost me dearly.

Sure, my case may be rare. But I'm a living testament that it isn't impossible. You may argue that perhaps I was predisposed to this. Perhaps I had a weaker serotonin network to begin with if one night could wreak such havoc. You may be right. But the fact remains that MDMA was the culprit that shoved me into that abyss. If it's capable of that, shouldn't it be used with caution?

First Bad's aim isn't to scare people. Nor is mine. We just don't want to see others land in the same boat as us because of MDMA's perceived safety. All brains are not created equal. All brains cannot take the same amount of abuse. New users should be made aware of the facts. And the facts are that if you get carried away with MDMA even slightly, you may be paying a huge price for it.

The misinformation that one must roll 100s of times before problems occur is a myth that is capable of ruining people.

So why shouldn't FBC be an ardent supporter of facts that he knows to be true based on first hand experience?

That's not condescending. It's caring.
 
OP got an answer, what she does with the advice is up to her.
This thread is being closed.
Have a nice evening.
 
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