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I want you to look in the future and see if you see this.....

specialist...that sounds a lot like my sit...
for me, when i started rolling/going to raves, i felt like i was in my social element. i was a very social person before, i just hadn't found my 'niche'...needless to say this feeling of belonging threw me headlong into use & the scene. both were highly attractive to me. my use only spanned 18months, and i believe i've only eaten 60-75 pills, but it was enough to lose that sense of magic that it once held, it got a lot more expensive to feel the way i wanted to feel and left me feeling progressively worse for longer amounts of time...that's what started to throw me into the depression, or brought it out, whatever the case may be.
Kyk...excellently put. i think it was on the end of the MTV special on e, at the very end, there was a quote i felt was spot-on about e.
"Once you get the message, it's time tohang up the phone."
bc
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**Proud to be an Official member of the Stuck-Up/8-Up Crew**
"Fuck PLUR! it's all about hardcore ass fucking!!"
We'll make great pets...
"drug suppliers, typically wearing 'Ecko' brand sweat shirts shuffle around the dance floor, chanting softly, 'want some pills? k?'" - Shu Shin Luh, The Chicago Sun-Times
 
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Once you get the message, it's time to hang up the phone.
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As much as I adamantly support ecstasy (for myself)...I'm still torn about that one. That hit me so hard. Thanx for reminding me.
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First of all, great discussion.
dance2tranz
It's hard to give a full synopsis of my life with regards to what I refer to as panic attacks, especially as it relates to e usage. In the past when I would have one, I would wake up in the middle of the night in somewhat of a dreamlike state, half-way between the land of nod and reality. My mind would focus on some unsolveable problem which would freak me out until I snapped out of it, usually by taking a shower.
What I found is that it was usually a result of me stressing out about life combined with sleep deprevation. The lack of sleep was usually a result of working the hours I worked at the time, midnight shift, or drinking until the wee hours of the morning in college.
I had one in the past year while I was "sleeping" during a comedown from e. I believe it stemmed mostly from the fact that it hadn't slept in 32 hours.
During comedowns on e, while I've been awake, I've found that I've been able to sit myself down and just think through the problems in my life, which are fairly minor I come to find out, and decide what to do about them.
As far as mood swings go, everyone has their ups and downs, but when I'm feeling a little blue about something, I ask myself why am I feeling this way. Is it because my serotonin is low, am I tired and need sleep, am I hungry, etc.? Or is there something really going on here?
Anyhow, I'd like to continue this, but I'm off to work. Another time...
ciao
 
I may not be the god of mdma dont get me wrong i would love that position... before i moved to florida in 98 i was in the navy for 4years. I was nothing but a drunk and a loser feeling sorry for myself 24 fucking seven (TOTAL LOSER I WAS)Till i moved to Florida i ate one pill the day i moved down here i got my discharge so i was in the clear :) ever since then i respect myself i can honestly say that i love who i am and i dont drink anymore maybe a beer with a friend but i usaually never finish it.. I am not saying ecstacy cured my Alcholism maybe it did or the doctors diagnosed me wrong and i was never a alcoholic. I use ecstacy once every 2 or 3months sometimes longer in time span I am sorry that some feel X will ruin your life but for me it saved mine i have never been so healthier in all my life well i hope things get better for you also you might want to step back review your self again you maybe self inducing it yourself i know lots of people who and dont even know it :)
God Bless
XTCFOREVER76
 
gmni13 :
Thank you for posting that awesome quote, I forgot about it and I don't know if anyone else here remembered it either. I hope when my time comes I'll be smart enough to take that advice (hmmm...psychiatrists) because it is so true.
cousin dave
 
I wish I could take the credit. It was actually bc that mentioned it
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Well anybody in the Navy is looser thats pretty well known....lol i'm just kidding I'm in the Army. Good discussion though.
I think what it boils down to is know what ur doing with ur body. Everyone has to look at themselves and do a risk assement. Some people don't need to be doing E some people do it too much. Be educated and make informed decisions.
 
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