I want to shoot up...

[sean107]

Long story short, I disregarded everyones advice and watched trainspotters, and now I want to shoot up and go back to the streets... I haven't been in that min state in 3 years...

 

[badfish45]

The title of the movie is a metaphor to how the main characters waste their time. Returning to that lifestyle all leads down the same road, it will not make you happy this time, or the next time, or the next time. Every time you use you'll need more to yet again satisfy yourself. You're a recovering addict, give life some time to get better. I can't change your decision but for the sake of yourself I advise agains using. While it may seem initially glamorous, the honeymoon wont last very long until you find yourself at the same dead end.

 

[OxycoDrone]

The downsides FAR outweigh the positives man.

Every time you go back you think it'll be great, only the good parts, you can avoid the shit this time. You can't. Not even the strongest of us can go back for "just one".

Go see some good mates who don't use, keep your mind off it, don't watch Requiem, and do your best man. If you slip up, we'll still be here to help.

 

[stardust.hero]

Cravings don't last long you need to learn how to force yourself to wait a short while and in the meantime not continuously feed yourself with fantasies of scoring the drugs.

Don't watch triggering movies. Lesson learned hopefully. You probably will never be ready to handle movies like those.

I hope you made it through the craving Please let us know.

 

[psycosynthesis]

IVin smack for the first few weeks/months is bliss. Then the habit kicks in. Then you have a blast, are stoned for an hour or two, then you want the other one. Before you know it, you wake up and in the morning and before you are fully conscious, you want to get on. Then you fully wake up and your mind is racing with how you're going to make the money to score, what you're going to hock/pawn, who you're going to call to make up some bullshit excuse to borrow money from.

From my personal experience it went from this to snatching bags, mugging people, sharing dirty needles, begging for tastes on the streets.

Words of advice from an ex-junkie, don't do it. If you want to use smack, smoke or snort it or plug it, and FFS (as hard as it is), keep it to recreational use.

 

[stardust.hero]

Recreational heroin use 8(. Does not compute.

 

[paranoid android]

Umm i would strongly advise not to get into shooting smack. Nothing good ever comes of it.

 

[psycosynthesis]

Recreational heroin use 8(. Does not compute.

It's rare, but I know folk who only have a shot every few weeks/months even years.

 

[tripnotyzm]

I know people who use Heroin recreationally.. for now.
I often wonder where they will be in 5 years time.. Probably ruined.
Dude, trainspotting brings on so many cravings. I have never been into Heroin, and after watching that movie it really made me want try things their way.
Can't begin to think of how it would make a recovering addict feel.
Lesson learnt; don't watch movies like this. Especially when people around you have warned you of its triggering nature.
I hope you haven't given in to temptation yet. You've been clean for so long now, try not screw it up while you have life's biggest advantage!

 

[Vaya]

now I want to shoot up and go back to the streets...

No, you don't.
Not to invalidate what you are telling us that you feel, but let's look at this objectively: You watched the movie Trainspotters. And now you want to revert back to a lifestyle that sounds every much as awful as most junky's I've run into, my own included.

That movie, whilst certainly not glorifying the use of heroin, has its share of scenes that depict its characters enjoying the rush they get from injecting heroin. And there's your trigger. If you haven't been in that mindset for around three years, I am quite sure that you've discovered what a sincere pleasure life can be without being dependent on opiates.

In my mind there is no doubt that you have accomplished things that would have otherwise seemed extraterrestrial had you been injecting opiates all the while.

You were triggered, sean107. I encounter triggers every day of my life, but refuse to let myself forget how bad it was, and how great things have become since quitting. If you want to talk coping strategies, we're here. If you intend to go out and shoot up, then speak more openly to us and listen to the replies you will get (and have gotten). But the bottom line is that you don't want to shoot up.

And if so, for what reason?

~ Vaya

 

[auto448]

Slightly off topix but I had blood taken yesterday and couldn't even look. I know the habit takes over you I've been told but I really couldn't handle it myself. My arms fuckin bruised all over from that one prick.

 

[auto448]

Just mu opinion I'm from the UK and have seen Trainspotting multiply times and imo its glorifies heroin more that it should have done. Doesn't shoy you half the shit people have to do to get money for gear.