Alright so I'll give you guys the lay down.
When I was 16 I started doing ecstasy in the spring of 2009. The first time I tried it I had an AMAZING time, all spring break all I did was caps. I had so much fun and never had any problems with it.
All summer long after school was out I'd have fun and drink, do ecstasy all the time without any problems. In September and November after summer was over I did it maybe three or four times, that's about it.
One night I did about 6-8 White Crowns, then 4 other purple pills later in the night in December, which were pretty strong pills. I went home at about 5 AM with my girlfriend and went to bed.
The next day I felt seriously depressed, and the depression lasted for at least 10 days. Then I started to get bad insomnia, and I went through a huge manic episode which sent me to the hospital, and I was diagnosed with Bi-Polar Mixed State Disorder. After this I struggled with depression for months and only recently I have gotten better. I am on propper medication now and everything is fine.
2 months ago I did some yellow pills, I took one and I felt very mellow, talkative, and in touch with females. Then I popped a few more, and I started to hallucinate and glitch out, and I kept thinking I was in different places then I actually was. My buddy was having the same hallucinations as me. After I did these pills the next day I felt very depressed, I slept for about 2 days.
I kept having wierd urges to tell my family I love them and I felt a huge sense of guilt, anxiety through the roof, diariah, panic attacks, and it became so overwhelming that I became suicidal and I had to check myself in to the hospital. I don't know what was in these caps but they sent me over the edge, my buddy said probabally piperzine and methanphedamines, but who knows.
Anyways, I live a healthy normal lifestyle for a 17 year old. I'm a weekend drinker and I love partying. I'm scared to do ecstasy again though because i'm worried about what will be in the pills I take, and if it will make my condition worse. It's almost like the one bad batch of white crowns I had was an allergic reaction.
What are some methods I can use to make sure the ecstasy i'm getting isn't cut with crap? and does anyone know about ecstasy and bi-polar disorder?.
I am currently taking seraquil and divalproex.
I really wanna have fun and this shit is bothering me lol, I wanna hit up the bar this weekend with my buddies and roll hard but fuck .... it's scaring me a bit.
When I was 16 I started doing ecstasy in the spring of 2009. The first time I tried it I had an AMAZING time, all spring break all I did was caps. I had so much fun and never had any problems with it.
All summer long after school was out I'd have fun and drink, do ecstasy all the time without any problems. In September and November after summer was over I did it maybe three or four times, that's about it.
One night I did about 6-8 White Crowns, then 4 other purple pills later in the night in December, which were pretty strong pills. I went home at about 5 AM with my girlfriend and went to bed.
The next day I felt seriously depressed, and the depression lasted for at least 10 days. Then I started to get bad insomnia, and I went through a huge manic episode which sent me to the hospital, and I was diagnosed with Bi-Polar Mixed State Disorder. After this I struggled with depression for months and only recently I have gotten better. I am on propper medication now and everything is fine.
2 months ago I did some yellow pills, I took one and I felt very mellow, talkative, and in touch with females. Then I popped a few more, and I started to hallucinate and glitch out, and I kept thinking I was in different places then I actually was. My buddy was having the same hallucinations as me. After I did these pills the next day I felt very depressed, I slept for about 2 days.
I kept having wierd urges to tell my family I love them and I felt a huge sense of guilt, anxiety through the roof, diariah, panic attacks, and it became so overwhelming that I became suicidal and I had to check myself in to the hospital. I don't know what was in these caps but they sent me over the edge, my buddy said probabally piperzine and methanphedamines, but who knows.
Anyways, I live a healthy normal lifestyle for a 17 year old. I'm a weekend drinker and I love partying. I'm scared to do ecstasy again though because i'm worried about what will be in the pills I take, and if it will make my condition worse. It's almost like the one bad batch of white crowns I had was an allergic reaction.
What are some methods I can use to make sure the ecstasy i'm getting isn't cut with crap? and does anyone know about ecstasy and bi-polar disorder?.
I am currently taking seraquil and divalproex.
I really wanna have fun and this shit is bothering me lol, I wanna hit up the bar this weekend with my buddies and roll hard but fuck .... it's scaring me a bit.
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