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Mental Health I want to end it

mb-909 said:
I believe showing your own child that suicide is a way out, if nothings works anymore, is a pretty bad idea...
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I´ve noticed you are doing better and it must be really difficult going through all of this.
But I agree with mb-909, it can be a devastating pain for your child.
 
Good to hear you are doing better. It is amazing how much a job can help situations like this.

Blueight 1),
Stupid ex wife 0)
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Rick88 said:
Hi,
Reading my original post makes me shiver. I was so close to killing myself. But reading all of your replies, I owe all of you gratitude. I know if I hadn't gotten your support when I needed it I would have done it.

Even though the pain still lingers, I do feel alive and much better. I even got a job again (very lucky!). I am back on anti depressants and they do help somewhat.

I am starting to move on with my life but i will never marry again. Even the prospect of a relationship scares me.

But main thing is that mentally I feel better. In the last 3 months I have lost nearly 25kg so I am trying to start eating again too.

Thanks again friends
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I actually did try once and it went very bad. I could not listen, speak or hear for almost 48 hours. I was in a comma and I believe some part of myself died that day.
Everything just went dark from that day on. My job saved my life, so did my family but that experience taught me that is no way out.
Even if you succeed, you don´t succeed. Perhaps I´m dead in that other life I had, and continued with this one.
A lot of sacrifice I´ve made and all I carry now is regret, fear and constant concerns whether I´m going to make it or not.
This happened few years ago and the scars and up to this date I´m trying to repair the damages.
I hope you get better soon. Life seems unfair sometimes but I guess our efforts is to bring harmony and equilibrium to that constant unbalance.
 
Yes, you are right Bob Funkhouse!
I´m really trying. At least I´m physically healthy and sober.
Thank you very much for your great and valuable inputs! :)
 
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How can you say you have no purpose? You have a son and one day he'll be a teenager then a grown man and will want to know his father and your exwife will have no say in it.

You said your father disowned you, my father outright abandoned me. It hurts, and if you kill yourself your son won't have a father either.

I know life can hurt so unbelievably much, so you do what you have to to survive. You've made the right decision to keep fighting to make life worth living. And remember there are a lot of people who will try to help you if you ask for it. Perfect strangers who will listen and try to help you. As mean and harsh as the world seems, there is good in it.
 
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