I want my life back I need help to taper off morph

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Please help me. I need my life back. I quit taking opiod cold turkey two moths ago and got so violently sick. My husband told me I have to be done and dosent know I'm going through this again. I want a normal life I want my energy back without drugs I don't want my girls to see me get sick again. I'm scared but I want to be done for good. How do I keep up with replys outside of my email I have to keep this private
 
Please help me. I need my life back. I quit taking opiod cold turkey two moths ago and got so violently sick. My husband told me I have to be done and dosent know I'm going through this again. I want a normal life I want my energy back without drugs I don't want my girls to see me get sick again. I'm scared but I want to be done for good. How do I keep up with replys outside of my email I have to keep this private
Welcome to Bluelight! You've come to the right place for help. Are you prescribed the opiates or getting them elsewhere? The reason I ask is because maybe your doctor can prescribe something to help so you won't be so sick this time. I have found clonidine very useful (it's a blood pressure medication) Even with my history of drug abuse, my doctor will give to me for my night sweats. To check your replies, just come back to this site and your post is in our section called The Dark Side.
 
I can't talk to my husband about it now.. I already went through a detox ..and it was horrible. He changed his life and is doing so good. I mean he stopped everything smoking drinking ect.. I envy him. I love him so much. We've been together forever.. And I have a chance of losing him. I just want to make this the final detox. Sundays my last one I have... I don't have a script, so I'm scared to go to a doctor for symptoms. I have no insurance .. Can I go to a local free or low cost doctors clinic and be honest without legal reprocussion ?? I can't let my family see me throwing up and sitting my guts out at the same time again. All I have is some dissolving nausea meds from last time at ER, and access to a few vallume. And immodium ad. I also have a full time job that I can't lose . I mean .. I know I'm going to get sick but I just can't almost die from throwing up and shitting this time. If cussing isn't allowed ..sorry. I'll not next time. What should I do. I just want to be free.. I'm not doing it for just my family.. I want to be free and be happy and have energy and paint and enjoy life without a crutch.
 
Welcome to Bluelight! You've come to the right place for help. Are you prescribed the opiates or getting them elsewhere? The reason I ask is because maybe your doctor can prescribe something to help so you won't be so sick this time. I have found clonidine very useful (it's a blood pressure medication) Even with my history of drug abuse, my doctor will give to me for my night sweats. To check your replies, just come back to this site and your post is in our section called The Dark Side.
I replied at the bottom of this thread to you.. I'm new to this. In addition to that I've been taking for about three weeks.. They were time release but I have broke them up so it would not be time release (as much) about 20-50 mg day. I hate myself. I want to never do this again.. I'm scared. I just want to get through this detox and move on.. And become what I want for myself and make my husband proud of me for real. I just got to find a way to ease the symptoms and know how long I'm going to be really sick. I don't want to go to the hospital for vomit ect.. :( I'm scared
 
I've been in this situation and at the time I was unaware of comfort meds to ease withdrawal symptoms (not until I got very sick from abruptly stopping benzos) I don't want to include links with advertisements but look up the Thomas Recipe. Essentially, you would use some benzo, loperamide or other antidiarrheal, OTC pain reliever, blood pressure meds and vitamin supplements.

It's good that you have stomach medication in case you need it. You could buy those ensure nutritional drinks and Gatorade because you might not feel like eating much. Hot baths will help muscle aches too. I'm hoping that since you were using for three weeks, it won't be as bad for you this time around. (I hope I read that right) If you were to see a doctor and tell them what's happening, they wouldn't call the police or anything if you're worried about that. Keep on posting and let us know how you're doing. You can do this and we're here to help! <3
 
I've been in this situation and at the time I was unaware of comfort meds to ease withdrawal symptoms (not until I got very sick from abruptly stopping benzos) I don't want to include links with advertisements but look up the Thomas Recipe. Essentially, you would use some benzo, loperamide or other antidiarrheal, OTC pain reliever, blood pressure meds and vitamin supplements.

It's good that you have stomach medication in case you need it. You could buy those ensure nutritional drinks and Gatorade because you might not feel like eating much. Hot baths will help muscle aches too. I'm hoping that since you were using for three weeks, it won't be as bad for you this time around. (I hope I read that right) If you were to see a doctor and tell them what's happening, they wouldn't call the police or anything if you're worried about that. Keep on posting and let us know how you're doing. You can do this and we're here to help! <3
Thank you so much. I cry just reading support messages. When should I start taking the nausea and immodium.. Day of quit? And if I can't get into doctor can being honest with the ER get me into trouble with police? Would they offer any help, if that's my only option should I just go in saying I'm sick... ? Sorry for all the questions. I'll post more towards end of weekend when I start the hopefully not to awful nightmare that will occur. I can't wait for this to pass. I'm praying for strength and gods help , even though I don't deserve it. II will look up what you said
 
I'd say when you start feeling sick, at the first symptoms...
Have you really stopped using?
 
I'd say when you start feeling sick, at the first symptoms...
Have you really stopped using?
Hi, thanks for reply.. Yes today I had one tiny
Piece left and I took it.. I'm out I told my hok up about this and we agreed I'm cut off for good. IM DONE!! I Have a a few Val but that's it . besides some Zofran and immodium but yeah. I'm sure I'll be feeling the pain real soon. I also have mineral supplement a super vitamin b complex and was thinking of l-tyrosine.. But idk. I just wanna get through this and move on
 
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