Heroin I used a dirty needle…

[Ric1359]

I’m freaking out. A few hours ago I did something I thought I’d never do and I feel absolutely disgusting and scared and don’t know what to do at all right now.Been in a very depressed place and didn’t care in the moment.
To the point. I was at the casino. I was drunk as hell, probably to the point I shouldn’t have been in public.
I ended up hanging with some guys and drinking a few beers. They asked me if I’ve ever tried h before. I’ve had a cocaine problem for a while now but never been infront of h or even know where to get it. I said no but I’d be down to try it as long as I saw them do it first. They said there’s a private bathroom they go to, so there we went.
I KNOW how horrible it is to share needles. I KNOW that. I feel absolutely fucking DISGUSTED with myself but I really need some reassurance that I’ll be ok… or honesty if I won’t be..?
Anyway I don’t know if these guys are idiots (CLEARLY I’m the bigger one) I watched the first guy shoot and saw the difference it made in him. Pure happiness lol. He handed it over to his friend and he shot without cleaning the syringe of any sort. They asked me if I still wanted to try it and when I asked for a new needle they said it was the only one they had.
Like I said I’ve been in a really low place in my life, I was shitfaced, so I said fuck it.
Now I’m fucking terrified. Like actually petrified. I have no idea how many times they used it throughout the night, it was kind of crusty looking. As I’ve done research I feel like they could’ve been using it on repeat for the entire fucking night. Like I said I’ve never shot h or seen anyone do it and I simply just didn’t care in the moment.
Please what do I do? I genuinely hope someone can reassure that I’m not gonna get a blood clot and die or have a fucking stroke or something. I’m worried that some of the “crustiness” in the syringe was fucking coagulated blood. Basically my anxiety is telling me I shot up someone else’s dried blood and that I’m gonna get a blood clot and slowly die in the next few days. Please advice I am fucking terrified

 

[Atomic_Decay]

Don’t panic. Go to an ER or medical centre and get a dose of PrEp as soon as you can to minimise chance of HIV. You have a day or so I believe do calm down.

Monitor the injection site for sepsis- heat/redness/pain - antibiotics will sort that out. Probably worth geting a course of antibiotics woth your PreP.

As for other main risk - hepatitis- these days very easily cured and nothing to worry about. Ask about it when you get your PreP.

Basically these days nothing you are likely to get from sharing a needle is the end of world if you have access to good heslthcare.

 

[Atomic_Decay]

Seriously - don’t panic - just tell a health professional at an ER or medical centre exactly what happened and they’ll sort you out.

If you detect amy sort of judgementalism from the person just go somewhere else. In a busy ER they deal with accidents like this all the time

 

[Atomic_Decay]

Also also - a clot/stroke from this is probably the least likely outcome of all.

But ask at the ER and get a free professional opinion

 

[Jabberwocky]

agree. with the above. hospital now to get PrEp.

have you had a hep b vaccine?

what country are you in? i know in the UK most pharmacies give out injection packs for free. if you are ever likely to hang out with these guys again, get one. you usually get a choice of 1/2 ml and you get 10 pins to a pack + disposal thing, alcohol wipes, etc. fuck even if you gotta pay where you are, get them. blunt needles fuck your veins up way faster than fresh and they go frighteningly quick anyway.

be warned though, if you go down this path this will likely happen again. i have picked up needles off the floor (gross in its own right) that only had a 33% chance of having been used by me previously. even with the facilities described above, addiction takes you bad places and IV use ramps up the risks hugely. i got lucky, no blood borne diseases. but that doesn't mean you will. please get help ASAP.

 

[OpiateKiller]

I’m gonna be the asshole here. Alcohol isn’t an excuse to share needles with strangers. And the fact it was used by 2 people right in front of you, complete strangers, is mind boggling.

Chances are they don’t have AIDS, small chance they have Hepatitis C, but it’s in Gods hands now.

Getting a AIDS diagnosis is gonna cause a hell of a lot more depression than whatever you’re dealing with.

I say this with as much compassion as I can, but cut the shit out before you die or worse, have to live and suffer cause of your terrible choices. Like I do.

 

[Prettyboy12]

I’m freaking out. A few hours ago I did something I thought I’d never do and I feel absolutely disgusting and scared and don’t know what to do at all right now.Been in a very depressed place and didn’t care in the moment.
To the point. I was at the casino. I was drunk as hell, probably to the point I shouldn’t have been in public.
I ended up hanging with some guys and drinking a few beers. They asked me if I’ve ever tried h before. I’ve had a cocaine problem for a while now but never been infront of h or even know where to get it. I said no but I’d be down to try it as long as I saw them do it first. They said there’s a private bathroom they go to, so there we went.
I KNOW how horrible it is to share needles. I KNOW that. I feel absolutely fucking DISGUSTED with myself but I really need some reassurance that I’ll be ok… or honesty if I won’t be..?
Anyway I don’t know if these guys are idiots (CLEARLY I’m the bigger one) I watched the first guy shoot and saw the difference it made in him. Pure happiness lol. He handed it over to his friend and he shot without cleaning the syringe of any sort. They asked me if I still wanted to try it and when I asked for a new needle they said it was the only one they had.
Like I said I’ve been in a really low place in my life, I was shitfaced, so I said fuck it.
Now I’m fucking terrified. Like actually petrified. I have no idea how many times they used it throughout the night, it was kind of crusty looking. As I’ve done research I feel like they could’ve been using it on repeat for the entire fucking night. Like I said I’ve never shot h or seen anyone do it and I simply just didn’t care in the moment.
Please what do I do? I genuinely hope someone can reassure that I’m not gonna get a blood clot and die or have a fucking stroke or something. I’m worried that some of the “crustiness” in the syringe was fucking coagulated blood. Basically my anxiety is telling me I shot up someone else’s dried blood and that I’m gonna get a blood clot and slowly die in the next few days. Please advice I am fucking terrified

My best advice is go have a blood test to check for diseases but I’m sure you’re fine. I would share with friends who I knew had hep c but I’ve been clean any disease so don’t stress and definitely get your own rigs! Don’t reuse your rig either!

 

[Xorkoth]

Good advice in this thread. Just go to urgent care or the ER right away, as soon as you can. Tell them what happened. These days there are great medicines to minimize your chances of getting diseases that used to be incurable death sentences. As for infection, if the site starts to get hot or swell, that's a bad sign, but again, medical care will be able to help you.

Don't worry about humiliation, or judgment, this is your life on the line. Just go. Hopefully the fact that you haven't responded means that's what you did.

 

[Boku_]

See a doctor ASAP, there's anti HIV meds that can stop new infections from dirty fits happening.

is the OP male or female? I'm guessing male, if female bear in mind anti HIV transmission meds will cause a pregnant woman to abort their unborn child